I'm sorry everyone. I've vanished for a few months now. Last time I regularly checked anything on FA was back in mid September. I sort of hit a point in school where I simply had to focus on that. I had an online class in addition to my physical classes and although I thought it would be a simple class (Intro to Music) it was a lot more memorization than I thought. I had planned on learning different types of music and being able to sort composers into genres. I think a majority of the things I got wrong on the final was knowing the specific years any individual song was composed (Was it 1848 or 1846? etc.)

As I struggled to work through that my depression picked up again. I might have finished my first semester back with a 4.0 but I'm struggling to get the financial aid to work out right. My parents are being denied as the cosigner on the last loan I needed to cover my living and medical expenses and so I've been so stressed. I'm hoping the financial aid office will be able to help me when I go in next week. Tuition is covered but with 19 credits and a very limited bus system I don't have many options for work. It doesn't help that as an older student I don't quite have the same stamina most of the 18-20 year old students to be able to work a full time job and still hold down school.

So it's been a while since I've seen many of those that I know around here. I've just not felt up to dealing with people much. I'm extremely introverted and so when I'm stressed I tend to hide away from everyone. Only two or three people even have me on skype these days.

I've such a backlog of things to work through on here. Close to 2000 journals and 10,000 submissions so it might take a while to get through all of it. I do hope to avoid skipping too much of it, I want to see the things my friends have made even if they are a little older at this point.

I can't promise the same thing won't happen again in the future but I'll certainly try not to be gone for so long if it does happen again. I do miss talking with my friends around here. I'm sorry I vanished, I'll understand if anyone doesn't want to talk with me after this. I really do miss my friends around here <3 I'm just a silly bird. I know I'm a pretty crappy friend, I'm sorry.

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Onto what is new in my life, I guess. My shark Maya is very nearly finished with the help of the lovely  rizen She's gorgeous so far. (SFW) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18701773/
She's not quite done yet, we have a few more details we're considering. I'm already in love with her <3