I'm not really sure of the words to use in this, I'm not really sure who will even read this.
Maybe I'm just venting or otherwise wanting to get this off my chest and not keep it bottled.

For those of you who knew him but haven't heard,  damnevildog has passed.
For those of you who never knew him, I suppose this won't mean much but still...

DeD, we never did settle things after our falling out those years ago.
I'd like to think you didn't hate me, I know I didn't hate you.
You cut off communications with me, even went so far as to black list me so we couldn't talk.
All I ever heard was that I had somehow hurt you, offended you, but not from you.
The only place I found those words was with mutual friends who were just as confused as me.
I never found out the full truth and I guess now I never will, but I still want to say this...
I'm sorry, I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm sorry you thought it meant something, I'm sorry we
couldn't fix what happened, I'm sorry that I never got the chance to say how sorry I am.
I considered you a friend DeD, I never stopped thinking that, and I never will.
In the end it was a misunderstanding that never got cleared up, and that hurts to no end.
I hate misunderstandings that come between people like that, but couldn't fix it in time.
I'll have to live with that, the pain of knowing I hurt you without meaning to...
I will genuinely miss you, I just hope that somehow, somewhere, you know that.

Goodbye DeD.