Loosing Saleen
9 years ago
Saleen will be euthanized next week, as long as I can afford it. This will be the hardest thing I've ever done. I have to do this because I just can't keep up with her care. She having accidents, which isn't a huge deal, things can be washed, floors can be cleaned. But because I have to work 2 jobs, I can't be home to make sure she isn't soaked in urine or laying in her poop. And that makes me feel so guilty. She is happy, there is no pain. She doesn't care that she can't walk and that she just lays there. And that hurts the most. Knowing if she was with another family they wouldn't be facing this choice so soon. I don't really have anyone to talk to, all I get is "I'm so sorry" or "it's gonna be OK". I don't know how to tell them how guilty I feel. I don't even know it would help if I could.
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Oh shit, now I'm crying.
*Massive bear hug*
Please try to rehome her. Spend ALL OF your free time off work looking for places that will take her.
That won't change if I rehome her, all that will mean is that she will spend the last month or so of her life scared and shuffled around from place to place.
There is no treatment for DM, nothing I can do to stop or reverse it. So being able to afford treatment is not a point in my situation. She's gotten to the point that I cannot keep up with her care and I won't watch her deteriorate any farther. I won't do that to her. Once you've seen your happy, healthy dog go from being active and running around to not being able to even get to the water bowl in less than a year, then you will understand my position.