So I was driving the other day(though was night time)
got into a car crash and the car was totalled.
I had the right of way but still feels like it was my fault as I was by myself that night with no witnesses.
was snowing that night 3 days ago.
the light was green and I was already there ready to take a left turn when I got hit by a car thats going by 45mph.
luckily only a concussion and scratched lip and a bruised leg that fell before me.
still a little shaken up but the front jeep was totalled.
luckily airbags came out and I was wearing my seatbelt and the insurence is covering the damage and my healthcare.

Now today I don't feel my usual self.
like why didn't I die?
I was almost at deaths door and yet I was spared.
still shaking a bit from the incident and hope to heal.
just wish I could go back in time or something and prevent the incident from happening.
just wish I could of reached someone sooner as I didn't have my phone.
I felt so alone and wish I did died.

but then again I don't think my sister wanted me to be the next one to pass away.
now my minds been feeling a bit different. kind of like I don't want people to come into my life anymore and at the same time I want to make up for my mistakes.
i'm not sure if I'm alive or dead....