The pain of losing my Rudy has not eased up much yet..

- I had planned to attend Furnal Equinox for the Saturday for a day-pass as a surprise appearance for the the first time in 4 years. I had Dakkota 1.0 brushed out and packed in the Duffle bag to make a surprise appearance for photos for his last time at a con before retirement, but all those plans changed when my Rudy Shep began to get sicker over the last week. On Thursday he began vomiting continuously, and drinking water profusely all day & Thursday night, He became very restless all Friday, as if he could not get comfortable in one spot. Then at 6:30 AM Saturday, he had a very severe seizure while sleeping at the foot of my bed, he began convulsing to the point it woke me up and he fell on the floor. Then after that stopped, he could no longer stand up or walk. I carried him out to the living room * put him on a big pillow in front of the fireplace to keep him warm, but he began to have more mini-seizures that got progressively worse by noon.
Myself & my step father wrapped Rudy up in a blanket then took him to the local Vet hospital. They hooked hip up to iv, and the docs checked him over, but discovered there was nothing they could do, as it appeared that the cancer may have spread to his brain & other organs. it was decided to do what is best for Rudy, but just before the doc prepared the needle Rudy stopped breathing, then his heart stopped beating on his own, & he passed away at roughly 4:30 pm Saturday.
He will be cremated, and his ashes returned to me, where i will take Rudy's ashes and bring them to Newfoundland and bury him next to Rudy the 1st and another family dog located in the country near a favorite fishing lake.
Right now i am grieving as anyone would. This year has been not good so far with the one guy i loved so much dumped me last month, and now losing Rudy. I am not really close to my direct family, so all i had was my one love and Rudy, now both are gone and i have nobody really close.

- I would like to offer a sincere thanks to everyone who called me on the phone to talk, sent text messages, PM, DM, and notes over the weekend.
i received messages from distant friends, relatives, and even people i have not seen in a long time. It did hurt a little to not hear from many local close friends over the weekend, but that's life i guess. I understand that some were busy with a con and their own life. At least my room-mate Blake texted me and came home to give me a big hug on Sunday, and Wookiee visited on Saturday for a moment to pick up some fur fabric, and offer a hug.
So right now i am working hard on Dakkota Wolf 2.0 to try to get him completed for Motor City Fur Con, also to keep my mind busy as every time i think about Rudy or see his favorite sleeping spots in the now empty home i break down into tears, and i know i will do so for a long time..
The only things that keep me going forward right now is the friends close & far who care & give me the spirits to move forward..

- Sincerely FS6