Really, I do. Alone mentally, emotionally. Lost in my own damn body. I feel like my mind is slowly cracking, be it from one-part the body/gender dysphoria, one part from my lack of a shoulder to cry on if I need it, and one part from the trauma I put myself through on an almost weekly basis just writing some of that stuff.
Shit, I broke down just earlier tonight. Some days, my body just feels too damn alien for me to take, and what's worse, I just seem to have no definitive direction of where to go in my future, apart from a college and a loose major. Not to mention, getting set up for that's been a pain...
Fucking hell, I'm just so lost. I don't know who I should be, what types of people i may fall in love with... I just don't know at all.
I'm just so, so lost...