I feel like this fandom, instead of bringing me joy and happiness, brings me only stress and discomfort. Lets be honest here, most of the fandom weirds me out and "furry" will never be a lifestyle for me, just a hobby at best. And thats how I believe it to be treated as such, but thats just my opinion. I like fursuiting and the art and the community, but I would never make it a regular part of my life to the point where it becomes dominate. I did that and I felt no joy from it, I find most joy in it as a hobby because then I can leave it and come back a week or two later and feel better about and have a more positive outlook on the fandom. Early on in finding the fandom i went two years without meeting a fellow fur and I got worried that I would never meet anyone and I would just leave the fandom over that, but thankfully that never happened. But just a while I go I got to the point of almost quitting the fandom for a couple years since it would be years until i could go to cons and meets and stuff etc. But i would of abandon the friends I had made and have to start from ground zero again and they would of most likely have forgotten mostly about me. But thankfully I didn't quite and chosed to stay.

Thank you to  divadlo  thatanimefan44 and  iceshadow13 for being my friends and helping me through all of this, i won't trade anything in this fandom for you guys, and for proving that I belong here. For without you, I wouldn't be in this fandom anymore or drawing again :3 Even though we have never met face-to-face yet, I can't wait until that day comes that we can meet for the first time.