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"count your victories"
9 years ago
No matter how small
see....i once had a...Lets call them "friend"
and they hated how they never became popular on this site, no matter what they tried
"I just can't do it, i just can't ever do it" "no one likes me" "i am going to quit"
and...well they did...and came back...then quit again
they became quite toxic, to the point where i had to block them for a while
but it always get me thinking
"Would i be missed if tomorrow i disappeared?" "does anyone actually like my work?"
"are they just tolerating me?"
as i started before, in a previous journal "It matters to me" - http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7516930/
that i am mentally disabled and have a variety of mental problems that make it hard for me to articulate what i want to say
What i didn't say, is that this year, i am going to change a lot of things
focusing on getting rid of my Anxiety and paranoia
and i am going to do it my way
Now back to the point
I do worry if i am doing my best, or could i do better, is there anything i can do
will i be noticed? out of all the users, can i draw something that people will like
then i realized something, something i think i knew years ago, just never tried it
"Count your victories" -No matter how small
"Count your victories" even if they only matter to you
"Count your victories" even when all seems hopeless
I have so many things i can be proud of
and really...when it comes down to it
"No one is stopping me"
sure, i spend days trying to get a single picture looking as good as i think i can make it
and it gets...what? 20 views?
that sucks....but i still drew it, i took what i learned and what i tried and made something i can show
Sure, there is always going to be that side of me
that wants more attention, that wants to be noticed
but for now...the fact that i am still working hard, that i am trying to improve
that i have plans and goals,
the fact that i have my victories no matter how small
see....i once had a...Lets call them "friend"
and they hated how they never became popular on this site, no matter what they tried
"I just can't do it, i just can't ever do it" "no one likes me" "i am going to quit"
and...well they did...and came back...then quit again
they became quite toxic, to the point where i had to block them for a while
but it always get me thinking
"Would i be missed if tomorrow i disappeared?" "does anyone actually like my work?"
"are they just tolerating me?"
as i started before, in a previous journal "It matters to me" - http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7516930/
that i am mentally disabled and have a variety of mental problems that make it hard for me to articulate what i want to say
What i didn't say, is that this year, i am going to change a lot of things
focusing on getting rid of my Anxiety and paranoia
and i am going to do it my way
Now back to the point
I do worry if i am doing my best, or could i do better, is there anything i can do
will i be noticed? out of all the users, can i draw something that people will like
then i realized something, something i think i knew years ago, just never tried it
"Count your victories" -No matter how small
"Count your victories" even if they only matter to you
"Count your victories" even when all seems hopeless
I have so many things i can be proud of
and really...when it comes down to it
"No one is stopping me"
sure, i spend days trying to get a single picture looking as good as i think i can make it
and it gets...what? 20 views?
that sucks....but i still drew it, i took what i learned and what i tried and made something i can show
Sure, there is always going to be that side of me
that wants more attention, that wants to be noticed
but for now...the fact that i am still working hard, that i am trying to improve
that i have plans and goals,
the fact that i have my victories no matter how small
It's impossible to please everyone. The most important thing you can do is please yourself. Create something you can be proud of, rather than trying to appeal to the masses.
There are countless people (myself included) who wish they had the skill, the drive, and the passion to create. That's something you have that they don't.
I hope this helps.
so many people think "they are better then me"
and somehow just forget or don't realise how what they do is amazing
that they see what they do as "oh anyone can do that"
YES! anyone can do that...but not like you!
the time i knew them, they always were just bitter and nasty
always going on about how "I'll never get noticed!"
So don't misunderstand, i only called them "friend"
cause i am way to polite to call them what i really thought of them