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What now?
9 years ago
"here i am, this is all of me, i'm not hiding, i'm standing tall for all to see. Here i am, there is nothing bigger, nothing brighter than a future i see" - Asking Alexandria "Here I Am"
"I became insane, through long stents of horrible sanity" - Edgar Alan Poe
"I became insane, through long stents of horrible sanity" - Edgar Alan Poe
So I've noticed over the last few days I have been getting depressed out of nowhere, for no reason. It's like, everything is going fine, my life's getting back on track, but I'm so scared of it falling apart again that I can't enjoy the good things. I'm starting to feel isolated and lonely, I'm also starting to feel like a waste of space, because all I seem to do is drain on others. I wish I wasn't like this. I wish I could feel secure again. I'm tired of being cripiled by fear.
I am aware that I need some kind of help, but it's just out of the question because I have no money, and no way to afford the medication I probably need. I no longer have health insurance.
So if anyone has any advice on truly dealing with this idea be grateful. I'm admitting now I have a real problem, and I need to fix it, but seeing a doctor is out of the question.
I am aware that I need some kind of help, but it's just out of the question because I have no money, and no way to afford the medication I probably need. I no longer have health insurance.
So if anyone has any advice on truly dealing with this idea be grateful. I'm admitting now I have a real problem, and I need to fix it, but seeing a doctor is out of the question.
johnsparky
~johnsparky
Acknowledging the problem is the first step to fixing it. Ive been counseling with a friend at work who really turned me on to a new way of thinking. If you keep acknowledging the feelings of guilt and fear, I find it gives them more legitimacy and more power to bring you down. You have to put one foot in front of the other and take each little victory as a win. Take what you can get, and keep going. We're brought up to care what people think, but if you can catch yourself when you start to worry about what other people think you can stop yourself and turn it around. Food for thought
