I went to my sister's graduation today. And I seen my Ex getting a class photo. Seeing her beautiful face so cheerfully smiling. God it hurt so much. Such a horrible twinned feeling to see her so happy. But knowing right now she doesn't want to even have anything to do with me. Knowing how this happy moment for two people I care about has now just became an exercise in pain and torture. I couldn't stop looking. Even as I knew every moment was causing so much pain, because I knew I couldn't share this moment of celebration with her.. I even bumped into her parents, which only made me feel worse. And then I had to keep seeing her in the crowd, moving, talking enjoying what's sure to otherwise be a really special day for her, her family, the rest of my family and my sister. But now I'm just miserable. I wanted to say something to wish her a congratulations and hope she does well. But I also didn't want to spoil her day by talking to her either. Auuughhh I'm such a coward.... I hate that I still love you. And can't seem to tear myself away. I want to move on but I just can't. ... I still miss you so much, and though I've broken contact, days like this just make things hurt so much more.