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I don't even know how to title this... ;vvv;
9 years ago
Shit, fuck, just,,, I don't even know how I'm even going to get through this journal coherently...
I received tragic news today. One of my best and closest friends suddenly passed away this afternoon. I can't even begin to get my head around this, it's so... Surreal... Even now as I type this I can't stop crying. I've struggled to shake off the feeling of loneliness in the last few weeks and now with this... I don't even know how I'm going to pick myself up from this.
He was found at home by his housemate. As far as we're aware, he hadn't been unwell, at least not our knowledge. It's suspected that he suffered from cardiac arrest, but until we get the results of the postmortem, we won't know for sure.
I just want to apologize to my friends online for if I don't seem myself, or absent minded, blunt or perhaps even disappear in the next few weeks. I know it's inexcusable and you guys deserve better, but... Honestly? I don't know how I'm going to be when I've slept on this news and wake up tomorrow.
Finally I know that there are those who see journals like this as being a call for attention. To those, I say that I am not seeking attention or sympathy. Honesty is the very least that I owe to my friends and I don't want my mood in the next couple of weeks to impact negatively on the friendships that I share with them. All I want is for time and space to grieve.
Thank you for reading...
I received tragic news today. One of my best and closest friends suddenly passed away this afternoon. I can't even begin to get my head around this, it's so... Surreal... Even now as I type this I can't stop crying. I've struggled to shake off the feeling of loneliness in the last few weeks and now with this... I don't even know how I'm going to pick myself up from this.
He was found at home by his housemate. As far as we're aware, he hadn't been unwell, at least not our knowledge. It's suspected that he suffered from cardiac arrest, but until we get the results of the postmortem, we won't know for sure.
I just want to apologize to my friends online for if I don't seem myself, or absent minded, blunt or perhaps even disappear in the next few weeks. I know it's inexcusable and you guys deserve better, but... Honestly? I don't know how I'm going to be when I've slept on this news and wake up tomorrow.
Finally I know that there are those who see journals like this as being a call for attention. To those, I say that I am not seeking attention or sympathy. Honesty is the very least that I owe to my friends and I don't want my mood in the next couple of weeks to impact negatively on the friendships that I share with them. All I want is for time and space to grieve.
Thank you for reading...
It's terrible to hear news of that sort, and I'm sorry you have to deal with that pain.
You should take all the time you need; Your friends, and those who care about your wellbeing should understand.
I'm sure it's a difficult time at the moment, for you and anyone else connected to him. I hope you'll be alright in time.
I'm sorry you haven't really... heard from me at all. I'm sorry this has to be the first time you're hearing of me, through such an event...
I know that life happens, and people change... but just know that even if we don't speak anymore, I still care about you. And I hope you get all the love and support from the people who matter most.
Don't sweat it, we all have our own lives away from the screen to tend to. Thank you though, I really appreciate the kind words at a time like this.