Borked Uterus Going Away!
9 years ago
Got an emergency appointment with my doctor today (because I've been bleeding for a month! Ugh), and he agreed to a hysterectomy! I'm so relieved I could just cry. My damn uterus has caused me nothing but grief and pain for YEARS, and NONE of the treatments or surgeries we tried have worked right.
Kids were never in the cards for me, and I'm totally okay with that. At this point, anything is an improvement from the hell I've been stuck with.
ADDITIONAL:
For the record, NOBODY gets to lecture me on what I am and am not allowed to do where my own health care is concerned, or question decisions I've made with my doctor. ESPECIALLY not pissant 22 year old boys who barely know me, and whose opinions and "advice" are neither welcome nor wanted. You don't have a uterus, much less one that's trying to kill you. You haven't been through the shit I've been through. You're not my family, and you're sure as hell not my friend. You don't get to comment on my life choices.
I have blocked the individual in question, and he can fuck the hell off.
I tried to do that thing women are told to do, where I laid out my arguments and reasons in a concise, clear, firm-yet-polite fashion, and what response do I get?
"Oh, I'm not trying to convince you. You'd know if I was trying to do that. I just think it's still a mistake."
.....
HOW? HOW THE FUCK IS "I HAVE NO OTHER OPTIONS LEFT" A 'MISTAKE'?!?!
How is that so hard to fucking understand? Would you tell someone with cancer that it's a mistake to have the tumor removed? Would you tell someone with a burst appendix that they shouldn't have it taken out? The ONLY difference here is it's my uterus, and it'll kill me if left untreated. The only reason I'm not already severely anemic is I've been staving it off with iron pills. I HAVE BEEN BLEEDING CONTINUOUSLY AND HEAVILY FOR OVER A MONTH ON TOP OF MULTIPLE YEARS OF HELL-PERIODS!
So yes, I am ANGRY. I am a fucking RAGE BEAST right now. You don't get to treat my years of hell and a medical option that might finally, finally make me healthier again as a "mistake" just because YOU don't think women should be allowed to make their own health care decisions.
FUCK. OFF. AND. DIE.
Kids were never in the cards for me, and I'm totally okay with that. At this point, anything is an improvement from the hell I've been stuck with.
ADDITIONAL:
For the record, NOBODY gets to lecture me on what I am and am not allowed to do where my own health care is concerned, or question decisions I've made with my doctor. ESPECIALLY not pissant 22 year old boys who barely know me, and whose opinions and "advice" are neither welcome nor wanted. You don't have a uterus, much less one that's trying to kill you. You haven't been through the shit I've been through. You're not my family, and you're sure as hell not my friend. You don't get to comment on my life choices.
I have blocked the individual in question, and he can fuck the hell off.
I tried to do that thing women are told to do, where I laid out my arguments and reasons in a concise, clear, firm-yet-polite fashion, and what response do I get?
"Oh, I'm not trying to convince you. You'd know if I was trying to do that. I just think it's still a mistake."
.....
HOW? HOW THE FUCK IS "I HAVE NO OTHER OPTIONS LEFT" A 'MISTAKE'?!?!
How is that so hard to fucking understand? Would you tell someone with cancer that it's a mistake to have the tumor removed? Would you tell someone with a burst appendix that they shouldn't have it taken out? The ONLY difference here is it's my uterus, and it'll kill me if left untreated. The only reason I'm not already severely anemic is I've been staving it off with iron pills. I HAVE BEEN BLEEDING CONTINUOUSLY AND HEAVILY FOR OVER A MONTH ON TOP OF MULTIPLE YEARS OF HELL-PERIODS!
So yes, I am ANGRY. I am a fucking RAGE BEAST right now. You don't get to treat my years of hell and a medical option that might finally, finally make me healthier again as a "mistake" just because YOU don't think women should be allowed to make their own health care decisions.
FUCK. OFF. AND. DIE.
FA+

I don't really know what to say but that you're in my thoughts this entire time.
I know it's a weird thing to celebrate, but mostly it should mean not being in pain all the time anymore. =)
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Does this mean we can have a coming out party?
And no, I don't ever want to see it again. XDD Stupid thing hurts me all the time.
"What? Can't bleed anymore? ....got a problem?"
and then go all coolface.jpg. x3
Firstly I hope for you, that the surgery will go well and that you will recover fast afterwards.
Secondly I want to ask, if you can still have your "fun" after the removing of your uterus. (If you want to answer that :D)
As to your other question, I think it'll be awhile before I'm allowed to have sex again, but the doc is planning to leave the cervix and that, so I'll be capable of intercourse after everything heals up. I'll still have the clitoris too, so orgasm should be possible. I just won't have the uterus anymore, so no muscle contractions. Every woman's different, so I'll have to wait and see what it's like after surgery and HRT.
Then I wish you a fast recovery and a happy time without anymore pain down-under. :)
There will be consequences from this, the worse part being that they're 100% irreversible.
Do you really think I haven't considered all the factors involved? Nobody just gets up and goes "Hmm, I think I'll schedule life-altering irreversible surgery for no reason today!" Seriously. Nobody does that. You want to know why I'm so gung-ho to have my uterus removed? Here's why:
I'm a 33 year old woman. I've been married for over 12 years. I have been dealing with hell-periods since my teen years. A "normal" period lasts 5-7 days. Mine have ALWAYS run from 10-14 days on average. They've gotten so bad in the past several years that I have to take iron pills to keep from falling over from anemia. I can't work a regular job even if I wanted to because my periods are a literal horror show. I'd have to call in sick for a week out of every month. I've woken up in pools of my own blood on more occasions than I want to think about. I've canceled plans to even do simple things because when I'm bleeding, I can barely MOVE without having to run for the bathroom. Forget going to the store or even doing minor housework. I've canceled art streams where I'm just sitting at my desk to draw, because when it's really bad I hurt too much and have no energy to even do that much.
I go through hundreds of dollars in pads and tampons to try and keep things under control so that I don't stain and ruin my clothing. Ten hour leak proof protection? Ha. On bad days I might get an hour before I have to change everything. Even when I'm NOT bleeding, I hurt. Endometriosis means that I also bleed INSIDE my abdominal cavity. But that blood has nowhere to go. So instead it makes adhesions that glue my organs together. Which hurts. All the freaking time, whether I'm actively bleeding or not.
I have tried every non-invasive, conservative treatment available for my condition.
Hell, I've already had surgery once before to remove my left ovary, which was literally destroyed by cysts. Within 3 months of surgery, my right ovary (which also had cysts on it that were removed) had grown three NEW cysts, and my periods were right back to being hellish and out of control no matter what medication my doctor prescribed for me. Believe me, if anything less radical had worked, I would have been happy to stick with it.
Nothing. Fucking. Works.
I have been bleeding and in serious pain for OVER A MONTH from our last ditch attempt at treating me with depo provera injections. That's the exact opposite of the results I was supposed to get. My one remaining ovary is covered in cysts. I'm in constant pain that I just have to swallow to try and get anything done. The past three years in particular have been hell, and my doctor's been right there with me. I am out of other options, and just happy that relief is finally in sight, and he agrees this is the only thing left we can do.
And before you bring up the children angle, I don't want kids. I was never planning to have biological children anyway. Preserving my fertility was never a concern for me, and my husband had a vasectomy when we were in our mid 20s because we decided together, YEARS ago, that we didn't want to have kids. Not every woman needs to make babies. There are plenty of other people out there making babies and having a great time of it. I'm not one of them.
So are we clear now?
This is my choice. I've been talking to my doctor about this possibility since I started seeing him years ago. It is NOT a mistake, nor is it ill-considered. This is my light at the end of the tunnel. I'm well aware of what comes afterward, and I'm okay with what I need to do to stay healthy. That's the most important part. Right now I am NOT healthy. My uterus is killing me. It needs to come out, just like you'd remove an appendix that's gone bad. I want it gone, and I want my life back so that I can be healthy again. That's what matters most to me.
Unfortunately, as you well know, this happens far too often - both men and women have a disturbing tendency to delude themselves into thinking that they know/understand what a victim (of anything, not just endometriosis) goes through. The sad truth of it is, not even another victim can truly understand what another goes through. Yes we may share experiences, but she who feels it knows it. I cannot even imagine having such intense periods, though you know that the cramping I am well familiar with.
I really hope (though the folly of youth being what it is I doubt this will happen) this serves as a wakeup call for members of the community who feel that any choice a woman makes in conjunction with her doctor about her reproductive life is a 'mistake'. I can't help but wonder if the original comment was made by a friendly neighborhood Congressman though...
*exeunt stage right*
But I still consider it a mistake.