I can't stand myself sometimes. Why do I always bottle things up and then release everything when it has been fermenting for so long? Most of the time it ferments for so long that when I finally do clean it out it is too little too late.

It bites me in the ass over and over and over going as far as single handedly ruining 2 relationships before they even had time to repair.
I need to just fucking man up and say whats bothering me instead of keeping bad shit down and away.

If I hurt any of you in any way like this I'm extremely sorry. This is one area of my life I can't ignore anymore. I promise to do better and try harder. I promise to talk more even if I don't feel like it, and I promise to stop using my friends as a crutch when I should be dealing with my issues directly.

I've excelled at almost everything life has thrown at me except my voice, and strangely enough that that one hindrance has set me back more times than I could count.