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Exhausted
4 years ago
Equals Three
I just need a place to let this out before it goes public public.
I am exhausted.
2020 was unlike anything I have ever encountered.
A year ago today I was excitedly planning my wife's and I Honeymoon.
We had it all laid out for February. 1 week in New Orleans LA and 1 week in Jacksonville FL.
February the day we left before the trip I got into a car accident. My car was totaled and the other driver didn't even carry insurance. What seemed so drastic then seems so little and far away now.
Fast forward to March. Covid started running rampant. Many businesses now working remotely. Mine included.
May. My wife's mom got extremely sick. It turned out to be cancer. Cancer is a bitch.
In June my MIL went on Hospice. It was only a matter of time now. My wife signed up to be her primary care provider. Our savings was drying up trying to keep up with my cut hours and lack of 2nd income.
Late June. My MIL passed. The funeral was rough and difficult for us to afford financially as she did not have life insurance.
July - silence - I'm still working at home through all of this.
August - My wife catches up with friends she hasn't seen in a long time. I got to experience my heart being broken here.
September - Rent was paid weeks late. We were in danger of being evicted at this current rate. I finally got to go back to the office instead of being in our single bed apartment.
October - November - we felt like a shell of a human. Work suffered immensely throughout all of this. I received multiple warnings about my performance. Had to scrape some money together to get a winter car to replace the one that was wrecked February.
December - After the events of the year passed. We were shaken to the core and our fundamental living changed. Causing a further rift.
January - And this chapter finally comes to a close. Divorce is official.
I don't regret the wedding. And thank you for creating many good memories with me together. I'll never forget the time spent. It was well worth it and I'm sorry we couldn't carry on.
...My soul is tired and needs rest now
February - It still hurts when I know she is in a different man's bed. Its hard to shake the feeling.
I am exhausted.
2020 was unlike anything I have ever encountered.
A year ago today I was excitedly planning my wife's and I Honeymoon.
We had it all laid out for February. 1 week in New Orleans LA and 1 week in Jacksonville FL.
February the day we left before the trip I got into a car accident. My car was totaled and the other driver didn't even carry insurance. What seemed so drastic then seems so little and far away now.
Fast forward to March. Covid started running rampant. Many businesses now working remotely. Mine included.
May. My wife's mom got extremely sick. It turned out to be cancer. Cancer is a bitch.
In June my MIL went on Hospice. It was only a matter of time now. My wife signed up to be her primary care provider. Our savings was drying up trying to keep up with my cut hours and lack of 2nd income.
Late June. My MIL passed. The funeral was rough and difficult for us to afford financially as she did not have life insurance.
July - silence - I'm still working at home through all of this.
August - My wife catches up with friends she hasn't seen in a long time. I got to experience my heart being broken here.
September - Rent was paid weeks late. We were in danger of being evicted at this current rate. I finally got to go back to the office instead of being in our single bed apartment.
October - November - we felt like a shell of a human. Work suffered immensely throughout all of this. I received multiple warnings about my performance. Had to scrape some money together to get a winter car to replace the one that was wrecked February.
December - After the events of the year passed. We were shaken to the core and our fundamental living changed. Causing a further rift.
January - And this chapter finally comes to a close. Divorce is official.
I don't regret the wedding. And thank you for creating many good memories with me together. I'll never forget the time spent. It was well worth it and I'm sorry we couldn't carry on.
...My soul is tired and needs rest now
February - It still hurts when I know she is in a different man's bed. Its hard to shake the feeling.
