nope. im still here. and more importantly i want to write again. but baby steps first. this whole "adult" thing is really tireing. I had the day off and didnt leave the bed till after noon?! what is wrong with me? I know im not an early bird but i used to loos my mind if i wasent up by 9. so yah, being an adult and keeping a full tim job, and taking care of a house will just about kill you. but im not dead yet.