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It Would Appear... That I am in Lukan's Shoes Now...
9 years ago
WE INTERRUPT THIS YIFFING WITH A WORD FROM OUR FOX
I'd make a joke saying that Lukan does not wear shoes like any of my characters but... this is a really serious situation.
I said I'd NEVER post updates on my life ever again, but this one... it just... It needs to be said, even IF I'm wasting my time...
My mom is liable to leave between the 18th and 31st of this month. Not because of any sort of malicious intent, but because she cannot stay here any more. And unfortunately, because my job is currently compromised, it may be far, FAR too risky for me, myself, to stay as well.
But there is a problem with me going with her. Quite a few actually.
Problem 1. Lease violations and short term notice with work. Our lease is set for March, and as you can imagine, breaking it early like that that is a bad thing to do. Also work. Since I AM still employed and have a job, for who knows how much longer, if I leave even at the end of the month, it's too early notice which could jeopardize my chances of finding a new job in the future. It ALSO does not help that all the jobs I have had so far did not last even a year. Employers will notice, and I won't be in good shape.
Problem 2. Money. My mom is flat broke, and I'm the only one with money right now. So that means I have to be the one to support us all the way back to wherever we go. And with the money I have... not only is it not much, but once again, all my goals must be put on hold indefinitely. I get that our success comes first, but seriously... this shiz is getting old... I MAY have enough... but it's going to hurt immensely... ESPECIALLY if getting a new job will continue being incredibly difficult...
Problem 3 and probably the biggest one... There was only ever ONE reason I EVER moved to Arizona in the first place. And that was for my mate. I wanted to be with him so badly that I threw away all other options of living and chose Arizona. But if I have to leave, that means I am leaving him behind. He cannot come with us for another laundry list of reasons. So if I go back now... EVERYTHING I told you about in my move update journals will have ALL been for nothing. THOUSANDS of dollars down the drain. It would ALL have been a GIGANTIC waste...
But staying here? Is even MORE risky...
Problem 1. Like I said, my job s currently compromised. If my mom leaves, and I'm here with a roommate, because I might be able to get one, and I get fired.... t-tell me exactly what the hell I am supposed to do? If I can't get a department transfer before then, I will NOT be confident I'll be able to keep this job. And as long as THAT remains the case... I don't think it's safe for me to stay here. My grace period ends as September starts, so I am not at risk right NOW, but literally a few days after my mom would leave... seriously... potential roommate could not support me alone. Mom would have to come back, wasting WAAAAY MORE money that we DON'T have... there is no way I can take that risk!
Problem 2. Even if I DO manage to keep this job going for as long as I want, getting to my mate without means of transportation or anything like that will pretty much make no difference whatsoever. It wouldn't matter if I lived 150 miles away or 15,000; we're never going to meet. So what exactly IS the point in staying because of THIS... if nothing will CHANGE!?
Admittedly, there are is less problems staying here. But that one problem up there is so daunting that is it even worth it? Is it even a good idea?! Can I even put faith in the chance I can keep this job!? The best I can do is not enough for these unreasonable standards of theirs! This... is only scratching the surface, but I got the gist of what's important out of the way... I have no fucking clue what to do, and I have only a few days to decide...
All choices are the wrong ones.
There is no right one.
This... this could be it my friends... I don't say that about many things at all, but this... this seriously... might be it. Who knows? Could a miracle still happen? Because I need it right now.
...No. I needed it AGES ago... it's too late...
I said I'd NEVER post updates on my life ever again, but this one... it just... It needs to be said, even IF I'm wasting my time...
My mom is liable to leave between the 18th and 31st of this month. Not because of any sort of malicious intent, but because she cannot stay here any more. And unfortunately, because my job is currently compromised, it may be far, FAR too risky for me, myself, to stay as well.
But there is a problem with me going with her. Quite a few actually.
Problem 1. Lease violations and short term notice with work. Our lease is set for March, and as you can imagine, breaking it early like that that is a bad thing to do. Also work. Since I AM still employed and have a job, for who knows how much longer, if I leave even at the end of the month, it's too early notice which could jeopardize my chances of finding a new job in the future. It ALSO does not help that all the jobs I have had so far did not last even a year. Employers will notice, and I won't be in good shape.
Problem 2. Money. My mom is flat broke, and I'm the only one with money right now. So that means I have to be the one to support us all the way back to wherever we go. And with the money I have... not only is it not much, but once again, all my goals must be put on hold indefinitely. I get that our success comes first, but seriously... this shiz is getting old... I MAY have enough... but it's going to hurt immensely... ESPECIALLY if getting a new job will continue being incredibly difficult...
Problem 3 and probably the biggest one... There was only ever ONE reason I EVER moved to Arizona in the first place. And that was for my mate. I wanted to be with him so badly that I threw away all other options of living and chose Arizona. But if I have to leave, that means I am leaving him behind. He cannot come with us for another laundry list of reasons. So if I go back now... EVERYTHING I told you about in my move update journals will have ALL been for nothing. THOUSANDS of dollars down the drain. It would ALL have been a GIGANTIC waste...
But staying here? Is even MORE risky...
Problem 1. Like I said, my job s currently compromised. If my mom leaves, and I'm here with a roommate, because I might be able to get one, and I get fired.... t-tell me exactly what the hell I am supposed to do? If I can't get a department transfer before then, I will NOT be confident I'll be able to keep this job. And as long as THAT remains the case... I don't think it's safe for me to stay here. My grace period ends as September starts, so I am not at risk right NOW, but literally a few days after my mom would leave... seriously... potential roommate could not support me alone. Mom would have to come back, wasting WAAAAY MORE money that we DON'T have... there is no way I can take that risk!
Problem 2. Even if I DO manage to keep this job going for as long as I want, getting to my mate without means of transportation or anything like that will pretty much make no difference whatsoever. It wouldn't matter if I lived 150 miles away or 15,000; we're never going to meet. So what exactly IS the point in staying because of THIS... if nothing will CHANGE!?
Admittedly, there are is less problems staying here. But that one problem up there is so daunting that is it even worth it? Is it even a good idea?! Can I even put faith in the chance I can keep this job!? The best I can do is not enough for these unreasonable standards of theirs! This... is only scratching the surface, but I got the gist of what's important out of the way... I have no fucking clue what to do, and I have only a few days to decide...
All choices are the wrong ones.
There is no right one.
This... this could be it my friends... I don't say that about many things at all, but this... this seriously... might be it. Who knows? Could a miracle still happen? Because I need it right now.
...No. I needed it AGES ago... it's too late...
...They're all the wrong choices...