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Dracul Where Art Thou...
9 years ago
Hey everyone, I know it's been a while. So here's whats been happening...
Basically I'm going to be without a place yet again, a shocker I know. I guess I'm just not allowed to be in one place...
Long story short, the roommate I was set up with is an asshole and wants me out soon.
I managed to get a decent apartment, but now I'm flat broke with a little here n there that still needs paid off.
I am at a loss right now on what to do. Sure I'll have a place as long as I can keep up the rent, which is easier said than done... Probably won't have good internet for a while because that's just more money to pay, money I don't have...
How do people do it huh? How do some of the popular artists or Youtubers do it?
Someone please tell me now how YOU easily manage a good apartment, along with internet, food, possibly a car, and still manage to go to cons or whatever...
I must be doing SOMETHING wrong. But what is it...? What's the secret...
I'm really worried right now for the future...
And I know you guys will say "Oh it will be fine" or "Just keep your chin up." But honestly, kind words don't really help...
That's kind of dickish to say, but listen, I'm having such shit luck right now, me and my mother both are. I'm not saying I neglect your kind words. Hell no! I am happy there are at least a few who care. But in the end, the way things are, it's really hard to see that things will get any better.
So far, nothing good has really happened yet, it feels like things are just getting worse and worse...
Even now I'm deciding maybe I should quit drawing after I finish the commissions and look for real jobs. Because this gig isn't paying me well at all...I'm not getting anywhere with my art.
And I know I don't post a drawing day after day, but come on. Can any of you draw while you're under a lot of pressure...?
That's something I wanted most of all in my life, doing something I really love for a job. It was a dream. And that's all it will ever be for me...
I don't know how you guys did it, but congratz.
I'm sorry I'm such a downer, but this is my life. What was once perfect and simple, is now something I'll never be able to get back...
Thank you everyone who stuck with me over the years. You all really do mean a lot to me. I'm sorry I failed you all in the long run...
Basically I'm going to be without a place yet again, a shocker I know. I guess I'm just not allowed to be in one place...
Long story short, the roommate I was set up with is an asshole and wants me out soon.
I managed to get a decent apartment, but now I'm flat broke with a little here n there that still needs paid off.
I am at a loss right now on what to do. Sure I'll have a place as long as I can keep up the rent, which is easier said than done... Probably won't have good internet for a while because that's just more money to pay, money I don't have...
How do people do it huh? How do some of the popular artists or Youtubers do it?
Someone please tell me now how YOU easily manage a good apartment, along with internet, food, possibly a car, and still manage to go to cons or whatever...
I must be doing SOMETHING wrong. But what is it...? What's the secret...
I'm really worried right now for the future...
And I know you guys will say "Oh it will be fine" or "Just keep your chin up." But honestly, kind words don't really help...
That's kind of dickish to say, but listen, I'm having such shit luck right now, me and my mother both are. I'm not saying I neglect your kind words. Hell no! I am happy there are at least a few who care. But in the end, the way things are, it's really hard to see that things will get any better.
So far, nothing good has really happened yet, it feels like things are just getting worse and worse...
Even now I'm deciding maybe I should quit drawing after I finish the commissions and look for real jobs. Because this gig isn't paying me well at all...I'm not getting anywhere with my art.
And I know I don't post a drawing day after day, but come on. Can any of you draw while you're under a lot of pressure...?
That's something I wanted most of all in my life, doing something I really love for a job. It was a dream. And that's all it will ever be for me...
I don't know how you guys did it, but congratz.
I'm sorry I'm such a downer, but this is my life. What was once perfect and simple, is now something I'll never be able to get back...
Thank you everyone who stuck with me over the years. You all really do mean a lot to me. I'm sorry I failed you all in the long run...
I really don't have much beyond luck going for me; I'm not really that useful a person at all tbh, for all my popularity that I do have.
Personally I've always thought it'd be fair if you charged a lot more for your artistry. Maybe a wage that could help support these problems.
I wish you the best. :(
*hugs*
I know you suffer with self-esteem about your art but you make people happy with it. We can talk about skill levels and nuances and details all day, but in the end of the day, you make people happy, and that's what matters most.
I wish you could be happy too, is all.
Don't give up on art entirely, you're a talented artist. But survival needs to be your priority, and if that means getting a real job and generating some cash to get out of debt and save up some money, then that's what you should do. Art can be your job, but you need a sturdy financial foundation to start from. And a lot of patience.
Just my two cents.
Finding a stable job and just getting everything in order should be a pirority. I won't tell you things will get better but I'll tell you that things will take time. Could take days, months or even years but you have to have the patience, determination, and if have a religion stay prayed up.
And most of all I want to just say (and even I have to follow this one) you gotta find what you like about yourself and love yourself. Stop thinking of what you can't do and instead what you can do.
Sorry if this sounds a bit much, I sort of just..know where your coming from spending two years without work, folks I wish wasn't control by certain vices, and generally feeling I want to scream but can't. I know some people get angry when I say this but I'll pray for you because I want things to get better for you.
P.S. Also watched now. I seen your work and actually am quite impressed with it. One of my goals is after getting a computer together again, is to actually pay for a few ideas I had in mind for the future. Mostly with flesh out character ideas and blah >_>;