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R.I.P My Purple Sheltie Queen
9 years ago
As I'm sure most of you following me already know by now, my best friend and confidant, my number one cheerleader and support beam, silverwing, passed away last Wednesday, August 10. Just a day short of 6 months to the day since my birthday, when my boyfriend, Alex, passed away.
This year has kicked my ass and I doubt that I'll be right again for a while, if ever. I can only hope and pray that they are together somewhere where they don't have to be in any more pain ever again. I hope I'll see them again some day soon. I hope that everyone they left behind will recover and heal and be able to carry on with their lives while still holding their memories of them near and dear to their hearts. I am here for whomsoever has been affected by this terrible, tragic, and untimely loss. It has been such an enormous blow to our community and we need to stick together and support each other now more than ever.
I only ask one favor. Jolyn always knew that, when I isolated and disappeared from the internet and didn't reply to texts, messages, calls, in a timely manner, if at all, that it means I'm in trouble and need reaching out to. As a recovering heroin addict myself, much like Alex and Jolyn were in life, it has been painfully difficult to keep my mind from reverting back to old patterns of thought to escape the pain I'm feeling. So, at least for the next few months, if it seems to you like I might be in trouble, there's a good chance that I am. I just want to put that out there while I'm relatively lucid and thinking logically at the moment, because these moments of momentary clarity are passing quicker and getting farther apart in recent days. u.u
I can't thank you all enough who have already been so caring and sympathetic, who are suffering right along with me right now, but who are still there to offer support when I need it. You will never know what it means to me. I am so fortunate to be a part of such a wonderful, supportive community filled with such amazing people. I love you all so much I could scarcely begin to describe. Thank you so much for caring. <3
Rest in peace, my shelties. I will always love you more than words could ever properly explain and I will miss you every day until the day that I die too. I hope I see you again, my friend. May the light that you brought to mine and so many others' lives never dim. I love you, Jolyn. </3
This year has kicked my ass and I doubt that I'll be right again for a while, if ever. I can only hope and pray that they are together somewhere where they don't have to be in any more pain ever again. I hope I'll see them again some day soon. I hope that everyone they left behind will recover and heal and be able to carry on with their lives while still holding their memories of them near and dear to their hearts. I am here for whomsoever has been affected by this terrible, tragic, and untimely loss. It has been such an enormous blow to our community and we need to stick together and support each other now more than ever.
I only ask one favor. Jolyn always knew that, when I isolated and disappeared from the internet and didn't reply to texts, messages, calls, in a timely manner, if at all, that it means I'm in trouble and need reaching out to. As a recovering heroin addict myself, much like Alex and Jolyn were in life, it has been painfully difficult to keep my mind from reverting back to old patterns of thought to escape the pain I'm feeling. So, at least for the next few months, if it seems to you like I might be in trouble, there's a good chance that I am. I just want to put that out there while I'm relatively lucid and thinking logically at the moment, because these moments of momentary clarity are passing quicker and getting farther apart in recent days. u.u
I can't thank you all enough who have already been so caring and sympathetic, who are suffering right along with me right now, but who are still there to offer support when I need it. You will never know what it means to me. I am so fortunate to be a part of such a wonderful, supportive community filled with such amazing people. I love you all so much I could scarcely begin to describe. Thank you so much for caring. <3
Rest in peace, my shelties. I will always love you more than words could ever properly explain and I will miss you every day until the day that I die too. I hope I see you again, my friend. May the light that you brought to mine and so many others' lives never dim. I love you, Jolyn. </3
Jolyn was a beautiful soul and she will be greatly missed. <3
(I don't know if you have my new number but it's 347-724-5449 and I use telegram more than anything else these days)