It has been awhile
9 years ago
Hello. SparkNote here. I know it has been quite awhile since i made any new tracks, and honestly it's because, well, I've lost so much motivation, and the lack of really doing anything has been really getting to me. I don't want to seem like i'm lazy, and just quit audio or anything, but fuck.. This past year has been so difficult for me. I was separated from friends, and living in a new place i honestly hate, and being able to do little to nothing because i never have any money fucking sucks. I have so many ideas in mind, and want to finish tracks I've gotten many positive reviews from, but ever since i moved here i feel like I've lost the will to do anything. I understand that it's a horrible mindset, and i really need to change it, but it's so fucking hard for me. There honestly have been nights where I've cried myself to sleep, and countless nights where i haven't bern able to sleep because i stay up all night thinking to myself 'jesus fucking christ. Where the fuck did my life go so wrong?'
I miss my friends. I miss making new music. I miss school. I miss my goddamn motivation. I was once working for something that i don't have anymore.
I really need to change this attitude i have brought upon myself. I really do. It's not healthy.
I miss my friends. I miss making new music. I miss school. I miss my goddamn motivation. I was once working for something that i don't have anymore.
I really need to change this attitude i have brought upon myself. I really do. It's not healthy.
kamuishinjo
~kamuishinjo
*sends hugs* I know it's been forever since we've been able to chat but I still think about you and had hoped things were going well. If you need/want to chat, let me know. I'm here for you. *hugs again*
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