Sometimes...I need touch. Just to have someone hold me close, tell me it'll be alright. I try so hard to just get through, to keep going with what I need to do but sometimes I just end up in bed alone with my thoughts and feelings and it takes over. I can't help but lay here and cry, trying to get over whatever gloomy feeling has taken over me. But it's the loneliness that makes me feel the worst, no matter what it's what causes that feeling to rear it's ugly head and make me spiral down into yet another night of crying myself to sleep. I get high fives from friends, fist bumps, hand shakes, hugs, but it's never enough. Because at the end of the day it's just me. Part of this is me not trying to find someone to be with, because I'm scared of getting close to someone and have my heart broken. Unless I overcome that I'm just going to keep being like this, and I know I need to work on it, because there is someone out there for me. Anyways, end of vent.