So, recently I tried my hand at getting back out and trying to find a girlfriend and it ended rather shitty. After a couple dates with a girl who I work with she told me we shouldn't go any further than friends because she doesn't want to date a coworker. Fast forward about 4 or 5 days after that, the day after Christmas actually and I hop on social media and what do I see but her now dating a coworker. It just...irks me. Flirting back and forth, putting out the fact that I care about her more than just a friend and I'm shut down and lied to. I mean, I'm probably overreacting, I tend to put a lot into starting a relationship because well...I really want one. Maybe that's my problem. I want a relationship way too badly. I've been completely single for a year and my brother has a gf, my friends all do as well or are married and I just want to feel love and be loved by someone. To open myself up to someone and have a special connection, to just have that someone to hold close and watch movies, play video games, just spend hours talking too. And being a guy I've always thought that was weird. Hell, since I was 12 I knew I wanted to get married and have a family, which again, I think it's weird even though it probably isn't. I like to care, I like to love and right now I feel like a part of me is missing without someone to care for. Anyways, venting over.