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Silver Lining , but still not out of trouble yet: VENT
9 years ago
So if you have been keeping up with my life > http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7885081/ < then you know that my 2016 has been shit. Even worst this month, which is a shame. I really love October :( but still fucking stupid shit keeps happening to me.
Like i've been kick out of another furry group, this time on a Monster Hunter's Guild in telegram. I was really upset why it happened, because it was genuinely too harsh for what happened. And even though later on i was apologized to by some of the ppl who started the witch hunt on me; i declined to accept it. Obviously ,because the damage was done, they really humiliated me, never even let me talk, and then labeled me as things that i shouldn't be. All on my first time ever really talking in chat.
Considering that i almost never talk in the chat, i was labeled a rude elitist and "too pro" to have consideration for others. I treated that person like it was a money mission, and i was nasty in my approach of what i said. And that is just really shrinking a lot of what was actually said. That person said a lot more, of which i found ridiculous but w/e.
Then i was advised if I WANTED FORGIVENESS, i was to apologize to everyone. For saying (the game is monster hunter generations mind you) I said
" if your defense does not defend you sufficiently then you must eat for felyne insurance. "
Which is basically like saying if you're not wearing enough protection, then use this tool that will basically give you an extra life, so you can keep fighting the monster 1 more time.
In All honesty, i think they disproportionately went after me, because the person who i said that to, was too was prideful. SO much drama was made out of something that was not even really offensive. Of which she then apologized later , but only after i had got kicked out from the group. Made the butt of someone's morbid joke, aka made fun of/my situation. Then they said if i had humor i should just accept that it was a joke of my situation, and if it was "too soon" then they will say it again at a later time. And then someone openly admitted in the group, that the group basically removed the only 2 hunters who were active in the guild.
SO i don't know why i ended up being hated on so much, if i hardly spoke in chat. And the only time i did, it was to give solid - common-sense advice that was misconstrued to be an attack. Which is was not; but i digress, so i made my own telegram group for Monster Hunters. And for some reason some of the ppl are avoiding me, well then i am thankful. Seeing as i did nothing wrong but w/e
ANYWAYS.....
My telegram group is called Felyne Insurance Inc. IF YOU WANT TO JOIN here is the link
V...........................V
https://t.co/B0YVC9DOR4
Everyone is welcome, just not the hateful stupidity. Your level doesn't matter, just your willingness to help and be helped. I like to think hunters grow best TOGETHER :3 Help each other grow kinda deal.
(Why did i say all this? Well because it's my first real furry drama. It also adds shit to my other IRL drama that i am dealing with. Making the place i use to use as a nice escape from my shity situation, has been shit on. So it makes me feel good to vent so, what.)
But there is a silver lining. A few wonderful ppl have commissioned me, and that is helping keeping me a float with my bills. I made $310 from my bill goal of $800. So at least i helped my mom pay rent, water and electricity. So i thank you, all of you who were kind enough to offer me work when i needed it most! <3 :heart:<3 I am still not out of trouble yet, but with all the interviews i have been going to. I feel like i am close to a job. I hopefully wont have to struggle like this for much longer.
Also my birthday is coming up 11/18 (HINT HINT< give me art presents> HINT HINT ) XD
HOPEFULLY November will be less dramatic and instead be my come up! I am really praying for it. I need a job now that i shed more pounds in HATERS.....
In other news:
I am OPEN for commissions and genuine art trades. I will try to make some themes for the holidays soon. Since I have been unsuccessful since graduation, to find a job in my field. Dont get me wrong, i am still looking but a bitch needs to pay her bills. SO I will continue my search , but till then i gotta go back to my roots. So back to art whoring it is, bills gotta get paid :3
AGAIN please dont ask for free art, just dont. Also if u add me on FB, without saying hi, i wont accept shit.
beyond that
i will continue to get my shit together to offer yall more eye candy!! :) & remember if you wanna see more frequent posts of my art, check my Instagram or Twitter. I usually show wips, detail shots +more!!
have a blessed day furs
enjoy the arts
Good Things
-ee
Reminder for a chance to win free arts!
The Goal Mark Free art Raffle!!!
When I hit these Goals. I will make a raffle for some gift art!!! It will be for EVERYONE that Followers/watch(es) those accounts. After goal(s) are hit; a New Goal will be placed up
Twitter:
(SFW)>>150 (CURRENT COUNT 123)
Tumblr>> 500 ( CURRENT COUNT 122)
Instagram>>500 (CURRENT COUNT 313)
Weasyl >> 20 (CURRENT COUNT 12)
FA>> 1,000 (CURRENT COUNT 933)
SOCIAL MEDIAS
More news and info as it happens will be posted on my VERY ACTIVE twitters
SFW https://twitter.com/Tiny_ee
NSFW/Private Naught_ee (DM me and say Hai or i wont add you!)
Got a instagram? Me too add me : evilessence
fb? Evilessence DarkstaR
Youtube (for events i attend, not really v-blog) evilessencedarkstar
Tumblr http://kawaii420moyase.tumblr.com/
Support me through my Patreon>>> https://www.patreon.com/evilessence?ty=h
Please keep in mind, that my patreon is still in the works. I am still fixing it up! :)
Art Work Queue
NOTHING YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
GIFT ART for:
Woofskii on IG - Ref (inking) not responding :/
Nayelie on IG (pending) not responding :/
[/right]
I would ALSO like alternatively to offer these next beautiful digital paintings that are on my Art queue (list is below) if you appreciate the art consider supporting me through My
Patreon page> https://www.patreon.com/evilessence
or tossing some
my way through My paypal>> ladysilverbane[at]yahoo.com
My Little "Active" Ponies (Work out related drawings, sweating ponies)
FlutterShy =Done * http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18434261/
Princess Luna= Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16183316/
[ ++OPEN++ ]
Pinkie Pie
Twilight Sparkle
Apple Jack
Rarity
Spike
Princess Celestia
King Sombra
Princess Amore
And any ones with a * are one's i would like to do again
Monster Musume no Iru Nichijou Manga {Everyday Life with Monster Girls}
[ ++OPEN++ ]
Suu (slime )
Papi (harpy)
Meroune (mermaid)
Centorea (centaur)
Rachnera (spider )
Tionishia (ogre)
Zombina (zombie)
Miia (naga/ lamia) =Done *
Super Smash Bros4- BongBongs: " Blazed Up Smash"
Charcater wiki link > http://metroid.wikia.com/wiki/List_.....h_Bros._series
WiiFit Trainer= Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18479590/
Princess Rosalina = Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18507347/
Princess Zelda= Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18488258/
ZeroSuit Samus= Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18535406/
Princess Peach= Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18600719/
Lucina = Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21410303/
[ ++OPEN++ ]
Sheik
Lucina + Sketching
Palutena
Robin (female)
Villager (female)
Jiggly Puff
OPEN Optional Gender Bent
Link
Yoshi
Sonic
Shulk
Ryu
Charizard
Dark Pit
Pikachu
Lucario
Kirby
Greninja
Like i've been kick out of another furry group, this time on a Monster Hunter's Guild in telegram. I was really upset why it happened, because it was genuinely too harsh for what happened. And even though later on i was apologized to by some of the ppl who started the witch hunt on me; i declined to accept it. Obviously ,because the damage was done, they really humiliated me, never even let me talk, and then labeled me as things that i shouldn't be. All on my first time ever really talking in chat.
Considering that i almost never talk in the chat, i was labeled a rude elitist and "too pro" to have consideration for others. I treated that person like it was a money mission, and i was nasty in my approach of what i said. And that is just really shrinking a lot of what was actually said. That person said a lot more, of which i found ridiculous but w/e.
Then i was advised if I WANTED FORGIVENESS, i was to apologize to everyone. For saying (the game is monster hunter generations mind you) I said
" if your defense does not defend you sufficiently then you must eat for felyne insurance. "
Which is basically like saying if you're not wearing enough protection, then use this tool that will basically give you an extra life, so you can keep fighting the monster 1 more time.
In All honesty, i think they disproportionately went after me, because the person who i said that to, was too was prideful. SO much drama was made out of something that was not even really offensive. Of which she then apologized later , but only after i had got kicked out from the group. Made the butt of someone's morbid joke, aka made fun of/my situation. Then they said if i had humor i should just accept that it was a joke of my situation, and if it was "too soon" then they will say it again at a later time. And then someone openly admitted in the group, that the group basically removed the only 2 hunters who were active in the guild.
SO i don't know why i ended up being hated on so much, if i hardly spoke in chat. And the only time i did, it was to give solid - common-sense advice that was misconstrued to be an attack. Which is was not; but i digress, so i made my own telegram group for Monster Hunters. And for some reason some of the ppl are avoiding me, well then i am thankful. Seeing as i did nothing wrong but w/e
ANYWAYS.....
My telegram group is called Felyne Insurance Inc. IF YOU WANT TO JOIN here is the link
V...........................V
https://t.co/B0YVC9DOR4
Everyone is welcome, just not the hateful stupidity. Your level doesn't matter, just your willingness to help and be helped. I like to think hunters grow best TOGETHER :3 Help each other grow kinda deal.
(Why did i say all this? Well because it's my first real furry drama. It also adds shit to my other IRL drama that i am dealing with. Making the place i use to use as a nice escape from my shity situation, has been shit on. So it makes me feel good to vent so, what.)
But there is a silver lining. A few wonderful ppl have commissioned me, and that is helping keeping me a float with my bills. I made $310 from my bill goal of $800. So at least i helped my mom pay rent, water and electricity. So i thank you, all of you who were kind enough to offer me work when i needed it most! <3 :heart:<3 I am still not out of trouble yet, but with all the interviews i have been going to. I feel like i am close to a job. I hopefully wont have to struggle like this for much longer.
Also my birthday is coming up 11/18 (HINT HINT< give me art presents> HINT HINT ) XD
HOPEFULLY November will be less dramatic and instead be my come up! I am really praying for it. I need a job now that i shed more pounds in HATERS.....
In other news:
I am OPEN for commissions and genuine art trades. I will try to make some themes for the holidays soon. Since I have been unsuccessful since graduation, to find a job in my field. Dont get me wrong, i am still looking but a bitch needs to pay her bills. SO I will continue my search , but till then i gotta go back to my roots. So back to art whoring it is, bills gotta get paid :3
AGAIN please dont ask for free art, just dont. Also if u add me on FB, without saying hi, i wont accept shit.
beyond that
i will continue to get my shit together to offer yall more eye candy!! :) & remember if you wanna see more frequent posts of my art, check my Instagram or Twitter. I usually show wips, detail shots +more!!
have a blessed day furs
enjoy the arts
Good Things
-ee
Reminder for a chance to win free arts!
The Goal Mark Free art Raffle!!!
When I hit these Goals. I will make a raffle for some gift art!!! It will be for EVERYONE that Followers/watch(es) those accounts. After goal(s) are hit; a New Goal will be placed up
Twitter:
(SFW)>>150 (CURRENT COUNT 123)
Tumblr>> 500 ( CURRENT COUNT 122)
Instagram>>500 (CURRENT COUNT 313)
Weasyl >> 20 (CURRENT COUNT 12)
FA>> 1,000 (CURRENT COUNT 933)
SOCIAL MEDIAS
More news and info as it happens will be posted on my VERY ACTIVE twitters
SFW https://twitter.com/Tiny_ee
NSFW/Private Naught_ee (DM me and say Hai or i wont add you!)
Got a instagram? Me too add me : evilessence
fb? Evilessence DarkstaR
Youtube (for events i attend, not really v-blog) evilessencedarkstar
Tumblr http://kawaii420moyase.tumblr.com/
Support me through my Patreon>>> https://www.patreon.com/evilessence?ty=h
Please keep in mind, that my patreon is still in the works. I am still fixing it up! :)
Art Work Queue
NOTHING YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!
GIFT ART for:
Woofskii on IG - Ref (inking) not responding :/
Nayelie on IG (pending) not responding :/
[/right]
I would ALSO like alternatively to offer these next beautiful digital paintings that are on my Art queue (list is below) if you appreciate the art consider supporting me through My
Patreon page> https://www.patreon.com/evilessenceor tossing some
my way through My paypal>> ladysilverbane[at]yahoo.comMy Little "Active" Ponies (Work out related drawings, sweating ponies)
FlutterShy =Done * http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18434261/
Princess Luna= Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/16183316/
[ ++OPEN++ ]
Pinkie Pie
Twilight Sparkle
Apple Jack
Rarity
Spike
Princess Celestia
King Sombra
Princess Amore
And any ones with a * are one's i would like to do again
Monster Musume no Iru Nichijou Manga {Everyday Life with Monster Girls}
[ ++OPEN++ ]
Suu (slime )
Papi (harpy)
Meroune (mermaid)
Centorea (centaur)
Rachnera (spider )
Tionishia (ogre)
Zombina (zombie)
Miia (naga/ lamia) =Done *
Super Smash Bros4- BongBongs: " Blazed Up Smash"
Charcater wiki link > http://metroid.wikia.com/wiki/List_.....h_Bros._series
WiiFit Trainer= Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18479590/
Princess Rosalina = Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18507347/
Princess Zelda= Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18488258/
ZeroSuit Samus= Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18535406/
Princess Peach= Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18600719/
Lucina = Done http://www.furaffinity.net/view/21410303/
[ ++OPEN++ ]
Sheik
Lucina + Sketching
Palutena
Robin (female)
Villager (female)
Jiggly Puff
OPEN Optional Gender Bent
Link
Yoshi
Sonic
Shulk
Ryu
Charizard
Dark Pit
Pikachu
Lucario
Kirby
Greninja
those people are just a bunch of fuckboys. they kicked me out of MiamiFurs chat because they were too pussy to handle me, i heard they were begging the admin Reishal in some other chat to kick me out and said they'd call the cops on me for what i say LOL!!!!! Don't worry about those people... i mean seriously, they kicked u out over a VIDEO GAME? wtf is wrong with those manchildren???
Those that cared about me are welcome to talk to me. But i am not going out of my way to contact any of them really. Because if ppl who lurked saw all that happen and didnt speak up on my behalf, then letting it happen is just as bad.
I just will never understand why i was treated so fucked up over nothing. And i am not going to waste time trying to figure that out. They ran me out, cool, it was fucked up but i'm never going back. It's just a shame becuz i thought they were my friends/ cared about me.
Now i know better and besides, i really didn't lose anything. None of them every really talked to me.
Furry drama, that's all it is. those guys are actually some of the most sensitive people i ever seen too, bet the drama ONLY happened on Telegram and NOT in person, right? lol, if they don't even have the balls to say anything in person, it ain't even worth your time. Stay strong, girl! :D
I REPEAT, if you DONT like what is being said, then too fucking bad. I have rights to vent on my page and i do agree that it is weak minded thing that was done to me.