Going to try to go through with transitioning as quickly as possible while I still can
Wish me luck aaa, there's a lot of hoops to jump through and I was too terrified of those hoops to do it before, but I can't afford to wait anymore, this might be the last chance I ever get.

(To clarify, I've never had second thoughts or felt scared about the surgery itself, I've always wanted that, I'm scared of making appointments and going through the appropriate legal hoops and getting the correct letters from the correct people that could possibly deny me on a whim at any point in the process etc)