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Kind of back? PLEASE READ IF YA KNOW ME! ;w;
9 years ago
First off, MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! 8D No matter my struggles or your own, I wish everyone happy holidays free of stress and hardship~ <3 Is is still one of my absolute favorite times of year~
But news and mindless marble fox rantings now~ Vacation was fun (Chilla's family is one of the few places I actually feel properly at home <3) but I'm a little burnt out at the moment! ;w; I have a fair few people still craving my attention but I'm not so keen on too much interaction at the moment, only with a select few people; so I really beg of you, PLEASE DON'T BE ANGRY IF I DON'T CHAT WITH YOU! ;w;
I'm also struggling some new and interesting feelings, mostly relating to sexuality and sexual encounters (both IRL and in RP) as well as some old nagging annoyances and doubts. I'm sure the doubts are partly due to lack of sleep and lack of medication. For anyone interested, I kicked my anti-depressants. It was kinda by accident as I forgot to take them for a week in the busy frenzy of packing and leaving for my trip; my boss gave me some extra hours so I could have some more pocket money (he's cool like that) so that meant working almost full time and trying to clean, pack, and get ready for my trip. I'm not the most organized and I'm shit with my time management! ;w; That aside, I chose not to go back on them while I went on my trip 'cause I was feeling pretty good! Overall I'd say I can pretty much 95% manage my depression on my own. I did, however, decide to go back on them 'cause I didn't realize how much they helped me with my temper, and a bit of help with the last 5% doesn't hurt either! Though I'm at half the dosage now, just got the prescription filled today~ Hey, why take more than what's needed, right? I'm confident this'll work well and it's nice to know that I don't have to rely on a pill to get rid of crippling depression now! =3
But back to what I was originally saying about sexual shit (this will probably be TMI for some); in short, I'm not feeling nearly as horny as I've usually been since sexual maturity. And I know it's not my meds as I've been off of them for a month now (they do effect libedo to a degree)! Perhaps it's maturity finally deciding to settle in? Maybe not. But I'm really starting to settle into something between pansexual and asexual (never thought I'd say I was asexual). Perhaps I'm misinterpreting it, but in short... I don't wanna do sexy stuffs with anyone IRL. If someone wants to do it to me (like giving me a blow job for example) then, yea, sure, I'm all for that! I'm not gonna deny that it feels good~ But I don't wanna return the favor, and I dun really wanna stick my dick in anyone. I'd also like to add that if someone does give me a BJ, it's very hard for me to get off. I have to sorta force it, and often have to close my eyes and think of other stuff. Sometimes I can't even climax! With my 'sona and characters it's a little different, that's where the pansexual bit comes in. But lately, I'm really just wanting to do sexual stuff with close friends. Not really into it with strangers anymore (though flirting can still be fun to a degree). Still, at this point I really have to say that vore > sexy stuff. -w- Though is it still strange that I still prefer seeing naughty bits drawn in vore when the characters are naked? o.o; Just seems natural....
Next, what journal would be complete with a bit of complaining about the american elections? You can skip this if you want. TL;DR: Believe what you want to believe, but don't demonize others and most of all FUCK POLITICS! >8U I've been refraining from talking about this for a while 'cause my views seem to make many people angry but I have to talk about it a bit.... I hate how politics split and divide people so much. And I HATE having to act like I hate certain sides or people around certain other people. Example? My boss and family are republican. My best friends are democrat. When around my family and boss, Clinton is satan. When around my friends, Trump is satan. If I don't act like that, arguments ensue and it can go so far as people looking at me like I'm retarded. Honestly, I can't get behind either one of 'em! The presidential debates were like watching preschoolers bicker! Seriously, most comments were argued with either a disingenuous shit eating smile or a pompous "wrong" before steering completely off topic.
Look here folks, BOTH SIDES HAVE GOOD POINTS! Am I the only one that can see it? Too much of either side would be bad! Too much republican control and gay and trans people would still be demonized. Too much democratic control and you get stuff like mandatory gender and race quotas in business and entertainment. Too much democratic control and it becomes easy for people to abuse the public assistance programs (I'm pissed that some of my tax dollars go to people too lazy to try and work and non-us citizens (I watched my gran get naturalized, why should she have to go through that and not someone else?)); too much republican control and there wouldn't even be a public assistance program (I'm on public healthcare, and know people too sick or disabled to work that need help from such programs; I'm totally OK with helping them)! So for fuck's sake, can we please stop rioting and demonizing people 'cause one asshole got into the white house instead of a different asshole? LIFE GOES ON. I really hope Trump proves his opposition wrong and is actually a decent president. I would say the same about Clinton if she won. What's done is done, it's up to everyone else to make the best of what happened.
Also hey, lemme dispel a misinterpretation here since most people 'round here seem to be of the democratic belief. Republicans aren't evil, not inherently anyways. My mother's one of the most open and accepting people I can think of, and she had no problem when I came out and told her I had a boyfriend. She also supports my trans sister. My boss supports equality for all and is just as accepting, heck one of his office workers is very openly gay. He also pays everyone equally based purely on merit; I even get payed $2 above state minimum wage despite being the lowest person in the company.
But news and mindless marble fox rantings now~ Vacation was fun (Chilla's family is one of the few places I actually feel properly at home <3) but I'm a little burnt out at the moment! ;w; I have a fair few people still craving my attention but I'm not so keen on too much interaction at the moment, only with a select few people; so I really beg of you, PLEASE DON'T BE ANGRY IF I DON'T CHAT WITH YOU! ;w;
I'm also struggling some new and interesting feelings, mostly relating to sexuality and sexual encounters (both IRL and in RP) as well as some old nagging annoyances and doubts. I'm sure the doubts are partly due to lack of sleep and lack of medication. For anyone interested, I kicked my anti-depressants. It was kinda by accident as I forgot to take them for a week in the busy frenzy of packing and leaving for my trip; my boss gave me some extra hours so I could have some more pocket money (he's cool like that) so that meant working almost full time and trying to clean, pack, and get ready for my trip. I'm not the most organized and I'm shit with my time management! ;w; That aside, I chose not to go back on them while I went on my trip 'cause I was feeling pretty good! Overall I'd say I can pretty much 95% manage my depression on my own. I did, however, decide to go back on them 'cause I didn't realize how much they helped me with my temper, and a bit of help with the last 5% doesn't hurt either! Though I'm at half the dosage now, just got the prescription filled today~ Hey, why take more than what's needed, right? I'm confident this'll work well and it's nice to know that I don't have to rely on a pill to get rid of crippling depression now! =3
But back to what I was originally saying about sexual shit (this will probably be TMI for some); in short, I'm not feeling nearly as horny as I've usually been since sexual maturity. And I know it's not my meds as I've been off of them for a month now (they do effect libedo to a degree)! Perhaps it's maturity finally deciding to settle in? Maybe not. But I'm really starting to settle into something between pansexual and asexual (never thought I'd say I was asexual). Perhaps I'm misinterpreting it, but in short... I don't wanna do sexy stuffs with anyone IRL. If someone wants to do it to me (like giving me a blow job for example) then, yea, sure, I'm all for that! I'm not gonna deny that it feels good~ But I don't wanna return the favor, and I dun really wanna stick my dick in anyone. I'd also like to add that if someone does give me a BJ, it's very hard for me to get off. I have to sorta force it, and often have to close my eyes and think of other stuff. Sometimes I can't even climax! With my 'sona and characters it's a little different, that's where the pansexual bit comes in. But lately, I'm really just wanting to do sexual stuff with close friends. Not really into it with strangers anymore (though flirting can still be fun to a degree). Still, at this point I really have to say that vore > sexy stuff. -w- Though is it still strange that I still prefer seeing naughty bits drawn in vore when the characters are naked? o.o; Just seems natural....
Next, what journal would be complete with a bit of complaining about the american elections? You can skip this if you want. TL;DR: Believe what you want to believe, but don't demonize others and most of all FUCK POLITICS! >8U I've been refraining from talking about this for a while 'cause my views seem to make many people angry but I have to talk about it a bit.... I hate how politics split and divide people so much. And I HATE having to act like I hate certain sides or people around certain other people. Example? My boss and family are republican. My best friends are democrat. When around my family and boss, Clinton is satan. When around my friends, Trump is satan. If I don't act like that, arguments ensue and it can go so far as people looking at me like I'm retarded. Honestly, I can't get behind either one of 'em! The presidential debates were like watching preschoolers bicker! Seriously, most comments were argued with either a disingenuous shit eating smile or a pompous "wrong" before steering completely off topic.
Look here folks, BOTH SIDES HAVE GOOD POINTS! Am I the only one that can see it? Too much of either side would be bad! Too much republican control and gay and trans people would still be demonized. Too much democratic control and you get stuff like mandatory gender and race quotas in business and entertainment. Too much democratic control and it becomes easy for people to abuse the public assistance programs (I'm pissed that some of my tax dollars go to people too lazy to try and work and non-us citizens (I watched my gran get naturalized, why should she have to go through that and not someone else?)); too much republican control and there wouldn't even be a public assistance program (I'm on public healthcare, and know people too sick or disabled to work that need help from such programs; I'm totally OK with helping them)! So for fuck's sake, can we please stop rioting and demonizing people 'cause one asshole got into the white house instead of a different asshole? LIFE GOES ON. I really hope Trump proves his opposition wrong and is actually a decent president. I would say the same about Clinton if she won. What's done is done, it's up to everyone else to make the best of what happened.
Also hey, lemme dispel a misinterpretation here since most people 'round here seem to be of the democratic belief. Republicans aren't evil, not inherently anyways. My mother's one of the most open and accepting people I can think of, and she had no problem when I came out and told her I had a boyfriend. She also supports my trans sister. My boss supports equality for all and is just as accepting, heck one of his office workers is very openly gay. He also pays everyone equally based purely on merit; I even get payed $2 above state minimum wage despite being the lowest person in the company.
You've got a er, very questionable sexual life, haha
And yes. SSRIs, assuming that's what you were on, play with your sexuality and libido quite a lot. It's kinda messed up how commonly they are prescribed haha. Glad you're doing okay lunar, gimme a poke when you feel like it, aite?
As for sexual stuff, I'm not really sure what to say. I guess I'm happy you're still into vore stuffs. xP
And as for anything about the elections, that's pretty much beyond what I know, so I didn't read through that. ^^;