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Insecure at 5 AM
9 years ago
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If you're reading this, thank you for taking time out of your day to listen to a stranger's problems. Most (if not all) of these problems I haven't spoken to anyone about. This seems like my only outlet, for me to be me.Kind of ranting ~sorry (very personal)I know I don't have a ton of watchers yet, but hopefully that will change soon. I've had this account for nearly 4 years and just last week I decided to finally have my fursona drawn up. Later today I'll post the reference sheet for Sarim, so hopefully more people can see it :3 In all honesty I'm super excited to post the sheet, and it's taking everything I have to not post it right now. Another friend offered me a free commish, as she missed my 21st and I'm really looking forward to that.
So what am I worried about?Honestly I think it's my own insecurities speaking out here. I'm fairly worried that the community will ignore me, as I myself am not the best artist. I'm worried that people will just scroll on by every time I post a journal or submission. I've never done anything like this, my main social media is facebook and I hardly post due to my worry of not being accepted. I'm even scared to come out to a lot of my friends on big social media or IRL as bisexual and also being a furry. It doesn't have to do with the two together, just each has a stigma in its own. I'm really just afraid society won't accept me, so I put on an act everyday. I really hope this community accepts me...
Why now, after 4 years?Idk, a sudden surge of interest towards the community, more than just the casual watcher of yiff. Suddenly I decided I wanted to show off my 'sona to everyone, rather than just describe him. I'm really considering making Sarim a female variant too. Anyways, I hope to get more involved with the community/ meet other furs out there that seem cool.
Anyways, why am I up so late?I got off work at 1 AM from my new job and for the last 4 hours I've been figuring out BB code for my profile information to make it purrrty. I feel like a total noob even though I'm no novice to browsing FA. This experience has given me a lot of appreciation towards people who make their profiles visually appealing.
I doubt many or anyone will read this. hopefully a year from now I can look back and be like, "wow things sure have changed."
