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And Here We go Again
9 years ago
A bit late, but I didn't want to left it out.
Yes 2016 was disaster, a lot of negative things happened around the world, and for me it wasn't the best year either, but somehow, I managed to survive it, so far I have survived 100% of my bad days and years.
I have learned that you either win or you learn, this year, bits been a year that has taught me a lot of things, and that is a good way to see things.
This year also had good things and changes. I changed from one triathlon team to another, this decision was not easy, it was really but really hard for me, but fortunately, it went well. It was hard for me to make that change because my older coach, believed in me, helped me and is my friend, but I was going nowhere, the team was falling apart and I had to do something a few months before the world championship.
This year I participated at the ITU world championship that was a huge deal for me, that taught me so many things about me, the thing is when you prepare for a competition this big and you train alone most of the time, you redefine your limits, you see how much you need to sacrifice in order to win so much, and how much you can push yourself to achieve big things. Even I didn't make it to the top places, being there, competing was such an amazing experience, that I hope to repeat again soon.
I was able to go two Furcons, this 2016, Anthrocon and MFF, even I was not planning on going to MFF until one day before, I decided to go, I went because I needed that, to forget about a lot of negative things I was going through.
Anthrocon was a blast, I really like it, saw a lot of friends, suited a lot, met new friends. I love that the city likes this con and let us be how we are.
MFF is a con I like a lot, but I don't think I can go next year, since my boss told me I can't have days off on December, since we have a lot of work those days.
At 2016 I hit rock bottom so hard, I don't know how I survived, I had a lot of negative thoughts about myself but I worked it out a lot, gave me everyday the pep talk, but it's really hard to see yourself on the mirror when you are depressed, you see a total stranger in front you try to look at your eyes and you can't hold the look. I didn't know what I wanted, I didn't find me self anywhere. I forgot about living and just managed to survive for the day. I always tried to keep it together, by exercising and listening to music.
Not many people know that I am very introvert and a bit autistic, but I am, so meeting people or making new friends is hard for me, but I like meeting new people, specially furries, but it happens to me that I don't know how to interact or what to talk about, and that frustrates me.
Last year I found myself lonely and alone, I realized, I didn't have any friends where I live and I felt I was loosing a lot of friends. I know it is my fault since I never learned to take care my friends, I always took them for granted, I never called them, occasionally messaged them, but I always remembered their birthdays and always loved to hang out with them, and always have a small present for them and always remember them when I see something I know they like, or a song I know they like... I'm thankful for the ones that still are by my side even though I feel I don't deserve them, but I'm very thankful to them, that they somehow tolerate my craziness. I hope I can change this, that I can have a lot of more friends.
It's being a hard year, but I am here and I will keep on fighting. 2017 it is being and I want to change all that negative energy and thoughts that haunted me and made me miserable. But among the multiple things I have learned, is that I'm the only one responsable for his own happiness, that I need to learn to get out of confort zone, and need to stop making excuses.
I am looking forward for this year, hope achieve my goals, to move out of Mexico or at least get things ready to move out. To make more and new friends. To break all my personal records in the different distances of triathlon and in every single sport (swimming, cycling and running).
And to finish i will make this my motto for this year "I CAN AND I WILL, JUST WATCH ME!"
Yes 2016 was disaster, a lot of negative things happened around the world, and for me it wasn't the best year either, but somehow, I managed to survive it, so far I have survived 100% of my bad days and years.
I have learned that you either win or you learn, this year, bits been a year that has taught me a lot of things, and that is a good way to see things.
This year also had good things and changes. I changed from one triathlon team to another, this decision was not easy, it was really but really hard for me, but fortunately, it went well. It was hard for me to make that change because my older coach, believed in me, helped me and is my friend, but I was going nowhere, the team was falling apart and I had to do something a few months before the world championship.
This year I participated at the ITU world championship that was a huge deal for me, that taught me so many things about me, the thing is when you prepare for a competition this big and you train alone most of the time, you redefine your limits, you see how much you need to sacrifice in order to win so much, and how much you can push yourself to achieve big things. Even I didn't make it to the top places, being there, competing was such an amazing experience, that I hope to repeat again soon.
I was able to go two Furcons, this 2016, Anthrocon and MFF, even I was not planning on going to MFF until one day before, I decided to go, I went because I needed that, to forget about a lot of negative things I was going through.
Anthrocon was a blast, I really like it, saw a lot of friends, suited a lot, met new friends. I love that the city likes this con and let us be how we are.
MFF is a con I like a lot, but I don't think I can go next year, since my boss told me I can't have days off on December, since we have a lot of work those days.
At 2016 I hit rock bottom so hard, I don't know how I survived, I had a lot of negative thoughts about myself but I worked it out a lot, gave me everyday the pep talk, but it's really hard to see yourself on the mirror when you are depressed, you see a total stranger in front you try to look at your eyes and you can't hold the look. I didn't know what I wanted, I didn't find me self anywhere. I forgot about living and just managed to survive for the day. I always tried to keep it together, by exercising and listening to music.
Not many people know that I am very introvert and a bit autistic, but I am, so meeting people or making new friends is hard for me, but I like meeting new people, specially furries, but it happens to me that I don't know how to interact or what to talk about, and that frustrates me.
Last year I found myself lonely and alone, I realized, I didn't have any friends where I live and I felt I was loosing a lot of friends. I know it is my fault since I never learned to take care my friends, I always took them for granted, I never called them, occasionally messaged them, but I always remembered their birthdays and always loved to hang out with them, and always have a small present for them and always remember them when I see something I know they like, or a song I know they like... I'm thankful for the ones that still are by my side even though I feel I don't deserve them, but I'm very thankful to them, that they somehow tolerate my craziness. I hope I can change this, that I can have a lot of more friends.
It's being a hard year, but I am here and I will keep on fighting. 2017 it is being and I want to change all that negative energy and thoughts that haunted me and made me miserable. But among the multiple things I have learned, is that I'm the only one responsable for his own happiness, that I need to learn to get out of confort zone, and need to stop making excuses.
I am looking forward for this year, hope achieve my goals, to move out of Mexico or at least get things ready to move out. To make more and new friends. To break all my personal records in the different distances of triathlon and in every single sport (swimming, cycling and running).
And to finish i will make this my motto for this year "I CAN AND I WILL, JUST WATCH ME!"
Feliz navidad y año nuevo Andy.
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