Don't beat yourself up. Hell, I know the feeling all to well. Just, don't force yourself. It'll come back to you.~

Sometimes I feel like i won't. This shit is going on for a lot longer than it ever has... I just don;t know what's wrong.

Yeah, I've been there. Hell, I'm still slowly overcoming a creative slump I've been locked in for over a year now. It's the worst. :c

Here's the thing tho- it's not my creativity. I've ha plenty of ideas- hell, I had an awesome one just a few hours ago. It's getting it completed that's not working, or getting aggrivated at some shit I managed to push out that came out like crap.

Ah, probably should have worded that better. I meant like, the inability to actually carry through with said ideas. -That-, I can relate to.

Aaahhh... its just so hard sometimes. Especially wen I've got a game to help make.... I need to be able to do art, in some form or another...

Maybe you're just trying too hard to make it absolutely perfect? Especially if you're stressing about overcoming this thing, it could be making you nervous or anxious, and thus causing you to make a mistake that just causes the cycle to keep repeating worse and worse.

Maybe just try saying "fuck it" and just throw something rough on a piece of paper. Nothing extravagant, nothing fancy, nothing that has to be perfect, something that's allowed to be rough and flawed - just throw it on a page and get something drawn. Even if you think it sucks, it may still help you feel better because it would at least be something. Just do it as a bit of a warmup, if nothing else.

Yeah... but I don't think this is normal art block. It started right when I started taking my hormones, and I've talked to some other trans friends of mine and they're saying that its possible that the hormones may have indirectly caused it. So... its a question if I'll even get it back.

Different chemical balances in the brain can affect our thought processes and creative abilities in different ways - it may just be a temporary side effect of your brain getting used to having a new balance.

Similar things have happened to different rockers I've listened to. Many who were addicted to drugs or alcohol went through rehab, and went through a similar phase as their brains and bodies were adjusting to the new chemical balance. Many of them came back even better than before, although the sound of what they wrote changed - which I suppose reflects a change in your mind, as well. Megadeth frontman Dave Mustaine actually had lost all muscle memory in his left arm, and had to teach himself how to play guitar all over again, and yet the album directly after that was freaking killer.

You're going through a lot of changes right now - which is a really great thing! - but since art is an outward reflection of ourselves, it may very well change with you. You haven't lost it any more than you've lost any other part of yourself, it's just going through a phase of change, too. Perhaps this is an opportunity to try doing new things with it! ^^ Experiment with new mediums and styles! Who knows what kind of awesomeness will come out of it??

Indeed. I suppose we'll see what happens when I can fucking draw a face again.

Maybe you're right... I so want my art back though; and with the fact that as it started when I started on my hormone treatments... it may be possibly indirectly linked. So the question is; will I get it back...?

Yeah. A friend has pointed me to some info, and I should get it back eventually. I'm just barely doing small things currently, just barely.