So where to start, FC 2017 was a rather interesting one. I’m going to skip some details since I want to try and make this short as possible. This is what I learned:


1. I am an introvert, big time. So trying to socialize is very difficult for me. I was tested big time when I attended one of the panels on Friday night. The only way I can describe it is that my heart rate was beating like drums in a heavy metal concert. Being able to stay in that panel without running out was a huge success for me.


2. While attending this same panel, I have also slowly coming to terms with accepting my body shape. For years, I’ve always had that damn illusion in my mind that you had to have the body of a porn star to fit in certain things, such as latex and zentai suits.


3. I have to accept that I can’t change what happened in my past. If you’re curious, go to the front of my profile and click on “The person behind the dragon.” There are still a lot of scars that are still healing, and it has been such a painful process to go through it alone.


While I was meeting with a few people here and there, I couldn’t fully express my emotions to them due to fear. I wanted to tell them so much on what was really going on. I know they care for me so much, but I struggled so much to tell them how much I cared for them. There is a lot of work to be done, hopefully by the end of the year, the past will no longer affect me.


There are a few other things I left out, but this is only for those I trust the most.