This is the last straw and i am gonna go fucking insane. Everyone its time i confess everything what is really going on on my end feel free to spread everything I am about to say and go ahead and criticize me for it because. It just shows everything in my family is flawed and yes I know we humans tend to make mistakes and learn from it and adapting to it. But apparently with the exception my "Family" if you even call em that now because again as the title explained I had enough of this shit and its time yo confess EVERYTHING what is going on. And brace yourselves; most of you are either are not gonna believe me or just gonna simply say "you're speaking absolute nonsense" which will be the case cause I am now officially insane and I don't talk about this I am gonna go even more insane and possibly going to become an insane outlaw and no I am not over exaggerating I am literally pushed over the fucking edge and I am about to fucking explode.

So lets start off by explaining the first problem with my life. For the past 6+ years, I have been living with my family since almost my entire life but we're not always happy AT ALL. Almost everyday we have encounter a fucking of problems ranging from insane bills, fucking nosy ass neighbors. But since I've gotten older and moved into previous house own by my fucking cunt of a landlady who started as a close friend of my mothers as we move in. Then that's where it becomes down hill, a fucking nose dive.
Around the time my father was strong and moving about but he has a completely unhealthy obsession of coke cola sodas and literally drink 3 liters of it a day. And his obsession with coke cola and meat like stakes got so out of hand he ended up with diabetes which he suffered most of his life, and gotten so bad he ended losing most of his teeth and ended in the hospital because of heart problems cause complications of diabetes but after he got back from the hospital and paying hefty hospital bill my father is now fearing that he go blind because of diabetes then believe it or not his fear actually came true as he is now blind in one eye and partially blind in the other but luckily one of the eyes he is blind in was easily treatable but his other eye is now getting worse and cause by cataracts which is also caused by complications from diabetes. So why is he a problem. Because he even he trying to recover to he is completely arrogant and tends to forget things easily. But he knows how to cheer me up so he is the least problem i have with my family but still a problem regardless today because another habit he does is that he also loves iced tea but what he ends up doing is making a mess and i am force to clean it up. And keep this in mind by the time i am writing this insanely long journal about my life that'll make Chris Chan a run for his money, my father's vision is slowly returning and he just need to get his cataracts removed from his eye as the other eye has fully healed and can see clearly in that one eye so he should see the mess and do something but no he goes back to the room which I must remind everyone and brutally honest here; its a fucking mess. Like a fucking tornado just came over it as unhealthy as he is, the room is a disaster but thats only half of it. The other thing he does he never notifies that he is gonna use the microwave which he uses to make his ice tea and tatter tots.

Okay please follow me on this; the issue is that we have a pretty good internet connection but we also have a pretty powerful microwave. And great number of you are thinking "well whats the issue with the microwave and what does your internet have anything to do with it?" the problem is that the microwave when turned on interferes the internet connection of our routers causing em to go haywire to the point internet access cannot be use therefore it disconnects itself but eventually when the microwave is turned after the internet access gets back online a brief moment later after the microwave is used. And consider the fact my family and I play a few of online only games like Overwatch and Destiny any use of the microwave cause the internet to go fuckin nits then disconnects itself. And therefore whenever overwatch or Destiny being played will be disconnected. So the new rule is that much notify everyone when the microwave is gonna be used only one person defied this rule and its my father.

Now onto the second offender and that is my mother, in short term shes a pathological liar like myself and yes I also tend to lie as well back in the day but not as much anymore. But anyways back to my bitch of a mother. Back then she was kind but now....she is just fucking strict beyond belief. Whenever i do anything and not dressed up the way she likes it, as it shows a day before my birthday regarding THE INCIDENT (basically my mother shaved my head till its completely bald and her friend berated me) she will flat out bite my fucking head. Trying to make room of freezer and its filled with stakes, hamburgers, meat loaf and porkchops and I need to cook one or two to creat space she ridicules me. Dress in all black, she ridicules me, or hell walking out of the bathroom after getting out of the shower to get a fucking towel to cover yourself and there is no one around or no guests, she will ridiculed me. Literally she will fucking flat out ridicule shit out of me whenever I do ANYTHING. Now i need to mention she is also fucking irresponsible. For example she would go to a store and say "I'll be back in 20 minutes" or " I'm just gonna get a few things" she'll be gone for like a fucking hour or hell 2 or 3 hours in the god damn store picking and buying pointless shit we don't need like a bag full of jellybeans and snacks and treats like pop tarts ONLY FOR HER. And this is all done by some who claim to have a back problem but very suspiciously able to spend a fucking hour in a store when someone has a very crippling conditions such as scoliosis. For those who doesn't know (and to those who do know because i told them personally via PM on here in FA) mother was inflicted with sciolosis, which a malformation of the spinal cord form an S shape horizontally and not straight as an arrow, in her teenage years and was incredibly painful to her, but luckily with the help with her family she was able to get treatment done and straight her spinal cord to normal surgically and has made a full recovery. But then claims to have limited ability which she does HOWEVER she was to able to do lifting and bend over. Yeah. But now onto the biggest problem i have with her. Again she is basically beyond irresponsible and this shows how much if a cat person she is. Now you maybe all thinking "what does she have like 200 something cats in the house?" well yes but not that many cats but still have too many animals in the house. Mother has, get this; 18 cats in the house with the additional of 5 kittens in her room/ my OTHER brothers room (I'll get to him later because he is THE MAJOR problem with my family) and another 7 kittens in the back room (and this happened just 2 days ago) that makes a total of 32 CATS!! Yes that is fucking ridiculous but there is a reason for that and that my mother is responsible for our cat problem because she didn't get the female cats fixed and we have few females but a lot of male cats so yeah combined we are gonna be having a fucking cat infestation. It is THAT BAD. Because my mother say "oh we gonna get them fix" but every fucking excuse she makes is either "or i don't have the time or money" or "I couldn't because of my back" while she is doing nothing in her room but laying on her bed watching golden girls on hulu/netflix on her ps3 or playing breath of the wild or skylanders imaginators on her fucking nintendo Switch while chowing down on her treats which she claims "help her lose weight" the only time she ever leaves that room is either she needs to use the rest make something to eat or take a shit in the bathroom, leaving for work or one of my dads eye appointments or doing her homework. So she has time to play games and the golden girls while doing her other work but oh no she doesn't have the time OR money to deal with the cats thats all on my and my my OTHER brother's roommate who is currently living with us (that'll i get to in a bit) and when she does have the time and money (more specifically she FEELS LIKE IT) to the get the cats fixed. All the females are pregnant. Which means more fucking cats while the adult cats are turning our living room which i hardly go to and only person who does goes in there is my father occasionally, into a disaster area like my fathers and couches is saturated with piss and shit and my mother being the dramatic bitch as she is points the finger at me for not doing anything about which I do but it was too much and there is limit of what I can do.

Now onto the major problem i have with is my fucking Brother and not I am not referring to my brother CJ which i need to remind everyone that he FA to continue on to his own life and succeeded in being salesman and currently working for Game Stop and his store is not full of fucking dicks like the other Game Stop stores/districts, my Other brother is ironically enough is nickname CJ but he prefers to be called Christian. And this fucking kid...oh my fucking god where the fuck do I even begin with this obnoxious retarded bastard child? Well lets start with this fucking asshole is incredibly rude, like down right completely fucking disrespectful beyond belief. While my mother bites my head off. Christian takes it to a whole fucking god damn level, he would fucking treat me like im the child while he is the parent and my mother takes up on his favor and NOT mines. oh yeah did I forget to mention they both fucking treat me like a outcast and fucking black sheep of the family, while Mom, Christian. And my father treat each other like an actual family while i stood aside like i am non existent to them, yeah they did that as well.

Now back to Christian, this fuck child will go by far treating me like scum bag. I ask him a question despite the fact i am showing care for him, he only respond with silence or "its none of your fucking business" and yes he actually says that and among other harsh statements towards me. He also tends to chew my ass out including if i am playing a video game, back seating driving how i play the game. Also he likes to barge in my bedroom without knocking or without my permission and when he is done chewing me out he doesn't bother to close my room door all the way and or doesn't shut the lights off upon exiting. And every time i confront him about it he will flat out assault me both verbally and physically while my mother turn a blind eye. He will always tell me to shut up whenever I say anthing or hell even trying to finish a fucking sentence.

And today is where i have finally snapped. Because what happen was i had enough of Chrustians and my mother's bullshit and decided to first confront my brother.

What happened was i was watching Dmc4 cutscenes with Christians roommate who was the second person I respect because was kicked out of his families home and decided to live with my family. We both are commenting on the cutscenes until load and behold Christian walks in and and tells me to shut up while making false accusations like i complain about video games and their characters. To me that is very insulting because not only i am gamer but also i have every right to expressed my opinion on the game and what is that call? Oh yeah its call freedom of speech. And he is attempting taking that away from me and its that point where i decided that enough is enough. Just as i am about say he says shit again but i say "Dick head" out of fucking no where he picks up a wrench and hurls it at me luckily it didn't hit me. Then that's when i decided to confront him completely while giving him a taste of his own medicine which shows how much of a big fucking hypocrite he is its okay for him to disrespect him, he gets angry for it. So i started yelling at him " I don't give a flying fuck what you say I have the right express my opinion" he stood up and walk straight towards me and literally right up in my face he goes "you wanna run that by me again" I decided to stand up for myself and then grab Christian by his shirt still giving him a taste of his own medicine but then gets more Angry while showing me a big fucking hypocrite he is as he attempts to retaliate by put his hands on me so i shoved him on to the ground and spit on him. Getting my point that I was done with his shit. It was pretty wrong of me of doing that but it felt really good to the point i must savor it.

But that savouring moment short lived as what my mother did was fucking unforgivable.
As I head out of the back room my mother was at the hallway as she heard what happened. She grabbed me and force me into my room by throwing me in the there and told me to stay in my room.
A few minutes have passed and my mother comes knocking on my room door. I opened and mother is holding my San Jose anime convention ticket and ID that i got for my birthday. I was looking all over for it and learned that Christian snuck it out of my room and gave to my mother 3 days prior before what today. As she was holding my ticket and ID she pulls out a pair scissors. Right away I knew exactly what she is about to do with it but before i could anything; SHE DESTROYED MY TICKET AND ID, cutting it up into pieces till its pikes pieces in her hand then throws the pieces of wgats left of my ID and ticket at my face before slamming the door. All i did was look at the pieces on the ground as i falk to my knees and pick up some of the piece of was supposely my birthday gift from one of my friends. And i can hear Christian saying "serves him right"

That was the last straw and therefore I am about ready to go completely crazy. So for now on I am gonna stay off the internet until either I fully recover or find a new place to live. Cause I cannot do this anymore. It just goes to show how fucked up my family is and ironically. My mother left her family because they were dramatic. Which i don't know what to believe anymore.

This is my story and I hope every spread this. Put in the history books of internet. Anything...