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The hard decisions
8 years ago
There are points in everyones life where they have to make the tough choices. Where to go, who to keep and who to let go, Personal life or friends and family. These are all things that everyone eventualluy has to answer. And currently, Im at one of those impasses.
I have 4 questions that I need to answer.
Who to keep, Who to lose, To get a job, or to prioritize friends and family.
These 4 choices are proving to be harder to answer the initially thought. I have a squable amongst a group of friends, And the end result will be someone will be getting kicked out. Its hard becuse I care about everyone involved. And everyones opinon matters. Its not really a esy question to answer as it will change the lives of everyone involved. Be it for better... or worse.This decison for me however was a easy one to make. I trust my close friends. I have there back, they have mine. This question was a easy one to answer.
However the other one is not so easy.
I am tired of not haveing any money of my own. If I wantt something I have to ask others for the financial support to do it. I dont have a job. And I dont have a real excuse for why that is. I could work. But I choose not to. The reason for me choosing not to is very simple. My friends. My closest freinds all work. And it takes its toll on them both physically and mentally. And I like to be there to help.
But this means that I have mo money of my own. Which brings me to my next hard decision. Do I stay home. 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. so I can support my friends, or do I go and find a job so that I have spending money and can help support my family with bills, And possably help out my friends with small gifts and such?
This is a decision that I have yet been able to answer. And have put off for quite some time. And my reasons, well there not the greatest. I dont want to end up working all day and sleeping all night, as then my friends never see me. All tired and sore, just wanting to rest. I hate it from my side, How would they feel from theres? But I want to be able to afford my own things, to help where help can be offerd. So im not just a do nothing nobody taht lives with there mom rent free and with no bills to pay.
Its to the point where I feel that its a signifficant impact on my depresstion. And its one reason why my depresstion s as bad as it is.
Which leaves me in this position... Do I work and have money, Put sacrifice time with my best friends, Or do I stay with them, but never have anything of my own? This is just something I just cant answer yet. JHust another one of those hard decisions I will eventually have to answer.
I have 4 questions that I need to answer.
Who to keep, Who to lose, To get a job, or to prioritize friends and family.
These 4 choices are proving to be harder to answer the initially thought. I have a squable amongst a group of friends, And the end result will be someone will be getting kicked out. Its hard becuse I care about everyone involved. And everyones opinon matters. Its not really a esy question to answer as it will change the lives of everyone involved. Be it for better... or worse.This decison for me however was a easy one to make. I trust my close friends. I have there back, they have mine. This question was a easy one to answer.
However the other one is not so easy.
I am tired of not haveing any money of my own. If I wantt something I have to ask others for the financial support to do it. I dont have a job. And I dont have a real excuse for why that is. I could work. But I choose not to. The reason for me choosing not to is very simple. My friends. My closest freinds all work. And it takes its toll on them both physically and mentally. And I like to be there to help.
But this means that I have mo money of my own. Which brings me to my next hard decision. Do I stay home. 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. so I can support my friends, or do I go and find a job so that I have spending money and can help support my family with bills, And possably help out my friends with small gifts and such?
This is a decision that I have yet been able to answer. And have put off for quite some time. And my reasons, well there not the greatest. I dont want to end up working all day and sleeping all night, as then my friends never see me. All tired and sore, just wanting to rest. I hate it from my side, How would they feel from theres? But I want to be able to afford my own things, to help where help can be offerd. So im not just a do nothing nobody taht lives with there mom rent free and with no bills to pay.
Its to the point where I feel that its a signifficant impact on my depresstion. And its one reason why my depresstion s as bad as it is.
Which leaves me in this position... Do I work and have money, Put sacrifice time with my best friends, Or do I stay with them, but never have anything of my own? This is just something I just cant answer yet. JHust another one of those hard decisions I will eventually have to answer.
Digicub
~digicub
I love you brother and i will always have your six
Digicub
~digicub
Im really proud of you and im lucky to call you my brother i know it sounds cheesy but you philly draeco and select few are my ohana and im glad that i got you guys as my family, thanks for never turning your back on me and always giving me a reason to smile when things fall apart, i love you all and i love you, i guess being younger brother i always smile cause i have two awesome big brothers to look up to, go ahead and tease me *blushes*.
