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8 years ago
Work has turned from crazy to complete madness in the past few months. My role was supposed to be advisory and in the worst case, I had to review some documents and provide some feedback.
Because of lack of able bodies to work on different elements of the project and company policy of āhelping me growā now Iām a mix of project manager, BA and solutions architect. But of course, pay stays the same. It keeps me really occupied, which Iām grateful for, not to mention any additional training is available for me, but I still miss something. Itās not what I want to do with my life. I still feel incomplete, and I donāt find any joy in going to work. I know that if I would at least remotely work closer to the field I want, I would be much happierā¦ but baby steps. At least it pays the bills (but I can moan from time to time, can I?).
Also, last week, Iāve been through āflu from hellā. If not for Kael Iād probably die in bed from dehydration. I havenāt been this sick for a long time. I was tripping balls, because how else you can call that when you start talking with your own fursona in the room. Thankfully itās all over now and only some small lingering infections left to cure, but antibiotics will deal with that.
And from life/social point of view ā still boring AF. Due to work and me being unable to cope with stress recently, Iāve become even more antisocial. I think Iāve reverted my development and turned into cave troll (and increasing weight would confirm that!). No gym, no kickboxing, no sports, bah, even Fridays I spent in front of the PC. And whatās worse ā no mates to hang out with. Iāve completely lost the ability to befriend people and even if I do I act like a complete weirdo around them. I bet it wouldnāt bother me if I would be weird by default, but because Iām aware of it, the social awkwardness only magnifies. Trying to deal with that as my top priority because Iām really growing tired of it and so far Iām failing spectacularly.
Hopefully when summer comes most of these issues will be in the pastā¦ Nah who am I kidding? :E
~Moany Elath
Because of lack of able bodies to work on different elements of the project and company policy of āhelping me growā now Iām a mix of project manager, BA and solutions architect. But of course, pay stays the same. It keeps me really occupied, which Iām grateful for, not to mention any additional training is available for me, but I still miss something. Itās not what I want to do with my life. I still feel incomplete, and I donāt find any joy in going to work. I know that if I would at least remotely work closer to the field I want, I would be much happierā¦ but baby steps. At least it pays the bills (but I can moan from time to time, can I?).
Also, last week, Iāve been through āflu from hellā. If not for Kael Iād probably die in bed from dehydration. I havenāt been this sick for a long time. I was tripping balls, because how else you can call that when you start talking with your own fursona in the room. Thankfully itās all over now and only some small lingering infections left to cure, but antibiotics will deal with that.
And from life/social point of view ā still boring AF. Due to work and me being unable to cope with stress recently, Iāve become even more antisocial. I think Iāve reverted my development and turned into cave troll (and increasing weight would confirm that!). No gym, no kickboxing, no sports, bah, even Fridays I spent in front of the PC. And whatās worse ā no mates to hang out with. Iāve completely lost the ability to befriend people and even if I do I act like a complete weirdo around them. I bet it wouldnāt bother me if I would be weird by default, but because Iām aware of it, the social awkwardness only magnifies. Trying to deal with that as my top priority because Iām really growing tired of it and so far Iām failing spectacularly.
Hopefully when summer comes most of these issues will be in the pastā¦ Nah who am I kidding? :E
~Moany Elath
Also, wish I had sickness like that. If I would be tripping to the point of seeing your sona, talking would be the last thing going through my head :P