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Hey guys.. bit of a long update please read
8 years ago
Ok so this is going to be a bit of a long status/update. Not a lot of people know what's going on with me, so I'll try to explain as best I can..
So around half way through last year, I got diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I was told to take pills that would supposedly help (they didn't at that stage) and told that the therapy would cost me thousands of dollars to get into the program, let alone treatment.
Before I was diagnosed, I knew I had "something", I just couldn't say anything officially.
Throughout last year to now, I have been on Tegretol (now that's changed to Seroquel), Cymbalta (which is now changed to Aropax), and I've now been prescribed to start taking Lithium.
(I've been on the Lithium now for about 2-3ish months.)
Only a few friends knew about what was going on at the time and I quickly lost treasured friendships that I thought would last forever. Those hurt.. those hurt real bad..
During this time, I've dealt with suicidal attempts (mainly harming myself), and stress from my job at MYOB (MYOB is an accounting software and I worked there in tech support)
And I should also state that MYOB was so supportive throughout all of what I was going through, but some managers didn't really understand (or put themselves in my shoes so to speak).
So much time has passed that I stopped drawing (I had no motivation to do anything), crafting and doing the things I loved.
I would just work, come home and watch Youtube till I fell asleep. Sometimes, even forget to eat!
I don't think I will be doing much of what I loved.. I don't seem to have a passion for it any more.
This includes, drawing, crafting or making fursuits/plushies.
It saddens me to think that I've gotten so bad at this kind of stuff, but I'm unsure of how to get over this rut that I'm in.
Things have lightened up since being on the Lithium, despite current pains in my abdomen that is currently unexplained (will be getting a colonoscopy soon); but the way I used to be, so active (especially in the furry fandom), has completely changed.
I've lost touch with the people and the community too that I don't think I would ever be back or active enough for people to remember me, or even to sell commissions any more or anything of that matter =(
I have also left MYOB, for those that don't know and I am working at a very chilled out, relaxed place where one of my best friends is my manager. I will, hopefully (if I stop getting sick), become Second in Charge soon as well.
Money at the moment is at an all-time-low. Probably from not working enough, not sure why it's so low.. guess that's adult life aye? =P
But on the upside, I got a beautiful Puppy, named Luna and she's a mixed breed of a lot of things. She's absolutely gorgeous!
So I think that's all the updates from me.
In relation to the furry side of things, I'm unsure if I'll attend any meets and if I do, I probably won't be at them long.
In relation to the people that know me and my friends, I love you all, some of you have been my rocks during this struggling time and I appreciate it all! Thank you!
Sorry for the depressing read, and if anyone wishes to chat with me, feel free to, I'm an open book and would really like to connect with people again =D
So around half way through last year, I got diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder. I was told to take pills that would supposedly help (they didn't at that stage) and told that the therapy would cost me thousands of dollars to get into the program, let alone treatment.
Before I was diagnosed, I knew I had "something", I just couldn't say anything officially.
Throughout last year to now, I have been on Tegretol (now that's changed to Seroquel), Cymbalta (which is now changed to Aropax), and I've now been prescribed to start taking Lithium.
(I've been on the Lithium now for about 2-3ish months.)
Only a few friends knew about what was going on at the time and I quickly lost treasured friendships that I thought would last forever. Those hurt.. those hurt real bad..
During this time, I've dealt with suicidal attempts (mainly harming myself), and stress from my job at MYOB (MYOB is an accounting software and I worked there in tech support)
And I should also state that MYOB was so supportive throughout all of what I was going through, but some managers didn't really understand (or put themselves in my shoes so to speak).
So much time has passed that I stopped drawing (I had no motivation to do anything), crafting and doing the things I loved.
I would just work, come home and watch Youtube till I fell asleep. Sometimes, even forget to eat!
I don't think I will be doing much of what I loved.. I don't seem to have a passion for it any more.
This includes, drawing, crafting or making fursuits/plushies.
It saddens me to think that I've gotten so bad at this kind of stuff, but I'm unsure of how to get over this rut that I'm in.
Things have lightened up since being on the Lithium, despite current pains in my abdomen that is currently unexplained (will be getting a colonoscopy soon); but the way I used to be, so active (especially in the furry fandom), has completely changed.
I've lost touch with the people and the community too that I don't think I would ever be back or active enough for people to remember me, or even to sell commissions any more or anything of that matter =(
I have also left MYOB, for those that don't know and I am working at a very chilled out, relaxed place where one of my best friends is my manager. I will, hopefully (if I stop getting sick), become Second in Charge soon as well.
Money at the moment is at an all-time-low. Probably from not working enough, not sure why it's so low.. guess that's adult life aye? =P
But on the upside, I got a beautiful Puppy, named Luna and she's a mixed breed of a lot of things. She's absolutely gorgeous!
So I think that's all the updates from me.
In relation to the furry side of things, I'm unsure if I'll attend any meets and if I do, I probably won't be at them long.
In relation to the people that know me and my friends, I love you all, some of you have been my rocks during this struggling time and I appreciate it all! Thank you!
Sorry for the depressing read, and if anyone wishes to chat with me, feel free to, I'm an open book and would really like to connect with people again =D
It seems like you are slowly getting more control of your life, and (even with money issues) are starting to take charge.
You are a lovely person, from the limited times we met. Can very easily relate to a lot of what you said...
Really do wish all the best for you and yours, and that things continue to steadily improve.