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It's that time again.
8 years ago
With the normal hustle and bustle of the working adult life, I had neglected a very important part of my being. I'd felt this feeling before, years ago, but it had gone strangely dormant, allowing the mundane everyday to take over my thoughts. Had it finally left? The thing that made me happy, I barely thought about it anymore. The thing that I still would not trade away for anything, kept repressed in my subconscious for so long after I had so readily embraced it.
I caught visage of dragons again, and through it came a familiar yearning, that feeling I felt years ago. This was different from usual, since I see dragons every day. This time, it saturated my thoughts, travelling to my day job, invading my focus there, so much that I had to write this while on the clock. I'm an adult, almost 30, should I still be feeling these things? The answer I hoped for was "yes", because it was the one thing that gave me strength for all of the years leading up to this moment, and I had casually set it aside.
My consciousness boomed, "no more!" A feeling of wings stretching out after a long hibernation, with eyes turned to the sky, an outstretched neck, the beginnings of a call in my chest, as though to call out to a mother. The fleeting words about to escape my lungs, "Please! Never leave me again!", but before a single cadence could escape, the response already shook my being, "You are mine forever."
Syntakkos. Who I was, who I am, who I forever will be. I'll never set you aside again
Other otherkin will understand what this feels like. I was really worried about it, I just turned 29 not too long ago, and I didn't nearly feel as much of a dragon as I did years ago. Were those otherkin thoughts completely silly? Honestly, I don't think so, and I'm not afraid anymore, I will turn 40, 50, 60, still believing in dragons. Something this important to me can't be cast aside. I'd neglected all of my dragon friends here, and I'd neglected myself, but after feeling those familiar yearnings again, I think it's time to get back into it.
The last time I felt this way, it prompted me to write Visiting the River as a way to explore the world that surrounds my dragon self. I can't believe it's been 5 years since then.
In case it matters, it was Odahviing who kinda sparked this in me. I don't know why him specifically, but that's where it started today.
I caught visage of dragons again, and through it came a familiar yearning, that feeling I felt years ago. This was different from usual, since I see dragons every day. This time, it saturated my thoughts, travelling to my day job, invading my focus there, so much that I had to write this while on the clock. I'm an adult, almost 30, should I still be feeling these things? The answer I hoped for was "yes", because it was the one thing that gave me strength for all of the years leading up to this moment, and I had casually set it aside.
My consciousness boomed, "no more!" A feeling of wings stretching out after a long hibernation, with eyes turned to the sky, an outstretched neck, the beginnings of a call in my chest, as though to call out to a mother. The fleeting words about to escape my lungs, "Please! Never leave me again!", but before a single cadence could escape, the response already shook my being, "You are mine forever."
Syntakkos. Who I was, who I am, who I forever will be. I'll never set you aside again
Other otherkin will understand what this feels like. I was really worried about it, I just turned 29 not too long ago, and I didn't nearly feel as much of a dragon as I did years ago. Were those otherkin thoughts completely silly? Honestly, I don't think so, and I'm not afraid anymore, I will turn 40, 50, 60, still believing in dragons. Something this important to me can't be cast aside. I'd neglected all of my dragon friends here, and I'd neglected myself, but after feeling those familiar yearnings again, I think it's time to get back into it.
The last time I felt this way, it prompted me to write Visiting the River as a way to explore the world that surrounds my dragon self. I can't believe it's been 5 years since then.
In case it matters, it was Odahviing who kinda sparked this in me. I don't know why him specifically, but that's where it started today.
thecoywolfzearoth
~thedarkwolfzearoth
Never doubt who you are. If you are a dragon you are a dragon whether or not you feel dragony all the time. Hell, I feel humanish sometimes, but never doubt I'm a coywolf. Little easier for me though as I can just sniff something I've scent marked and realize humans don't do that XD
Syntax0
~syntax0
OP
Thank you. Yeah, it's just the reflection that kills me, having seen how much of a boring adult I've become over the past few years, when I used to be so much more, and then the fear that everyone else grew out of things and that I was alone.
thecoywolfzearoth
~thedarkwolfzearoth
I'm the same age as you 29 going on 30 this year. Last few years I've got a serious job and bought a condo. I'm a boring adult too, but that doesn't mean I have to give up who I am. I wear my wolf, coyote, werewolf, and fox shirts to work on casual days and I have plushies and figurines on my desk at work (of animals from anime and video games.)
