aproaching 3-ish years pf art classes and I'm pretty sure I've learned to draw....I've been taught to draw every single thing in every single way I don't want to draw (-_-)

I've learned to draw in pencil, charcoal, acrylic paints, oil pastel, and water color. I've learned to draw items, abstact shapes, the principles and elements of art, and people in motion. I've made pieces that made it the the 2nd place rounds of college wide art contests. [even put in a gallery for a short time!] I've made pieces that made fellow students go 'Daaaayuummm~' when they look at the line work. I've already developed personal artistic habits I've taken note of. [Example being whenever I use paints and I have paint left over on my pallet when I'm near completion of my actual piece or I'm waiting for it to dry, Ill turn the pallet into its own tiny paintings using only the paint left on it~ I get so many vibrant and glorious shifting colors when I do that.]

In all of that, depite how I know all of the stuff I listed above are good things...I still don't feel like I've learned how to make the things I've been wanting to create my whole life. I want to be able to draw my Fur OC's so I no longer haft to barrow are on F-list. I want to be able to draw anime stuff so I cant finally put my 4-5 years and plots into existance. I want them all to be as beautiful as the stuff I see in games, on FA, on E621, and more with the percision of hand with the level of detail and type of texture only a computer can do. But I still Don't feel like I know HOW TO DO ANY OF IT!!!! >:U *flips desk*

Now I'm in summer sumester with online classes and I've hot what feels like a crippling road block when it comes to me drawing...when I'm in the studio during class I can work on art for hours straight before going home...now that I'm not in the class...I can barely bring myself to raise a pencil and work on the map I use for the Dungeons and Dragons game I'm in....I can't bring myself to draw (;A;)

I cant teach myself to draw the things I love if I can't even bring myself to draw SOMETHING!...Anything!? My dad tried to help by making me draw something from WoW...I managed to 'with what I can only describe as the mental equivilent of trying to push a car with no gas] draw a Fel Flame pet that I had from Outland. It seemed like such a simple shaped creature since it shares the same model with fire elementals....but in the end...it turned out as what I cant best describe as 'Meh...' uncolored it certainly fit the profile of fire,water, and void elementals but it just felt so off that I really stopped liking it...I wanted to throw it away....and it was nowhere near as good as anything I'd make in class.

I say all this In the hopes that someone cant tell me how I can 'motivate' myself into wanting to start drawing with renewed fervor. I want to be able to scan and post things here on FA so everyone can love my creations like I've always wanted for as long as I can remember~ (;w;) I just want to know why I feel so dead when it comes to drawing anything, why I can't bring myself to draw outside my class time in the studio...and hopefully how to fix it~ (^W^)