a thought on cons
8 years ago
ive been going to cons now for 10 years. lots of highs. lots of lows. and very little PCD from them all. i think i might of had it for like 2 of them. but there has been something big that has been happening. something i couldnt understand let alone put into words. i felt like i had tons of regrets, and lots of unhappiness afterwords. but then after watching 2 friends of mine have a bit of an issue, it all clicked.
there are 2 types of con goers. those that goto the con to have a meaningful event with someone. and those who want to have small ones with lots of people.
and way to often, when person #1 try's to have that meaningful even with person #2 it ends up being really bad for person #1. sad to say i am often person #1 way to much, but there have been times where i have been person #2. but watching my friends who both like each other very much almost ruin there friendship over this kinda opened my eyes to the idea of what was going on.
thoughts? ideas? comments?
there are 2 types of con goers. those that goto the con to have a meaningful event with someone. and those who want to have small ones with lots of people.
and way to often, when person #1 try's to have that meaningful even with person #2 it ends up being really bad for person #1. sad to say i am often person #1 way to much, but there have been times where i have been person #2. but watching my friends who both like each other very much almost ruin there friendship over this kinda opened my eyes to the idea of what was going on.
thoughts? ideas? comments?
First off, I don't have much desire to go to a con for several reasons. One of which being my agoraphobia, which is impossible to predict. Sometimes it happens, sometimes it doesn't. Because of that, I find it easier to meet people one on one or in small groups. This lessens the possibility of having a panic attack and is more likely to result in that meaningful connection you described which is preferable.
Another point I'd like to make, is that for certain people, it doesn't seem like they have the choice of being a #1 type, even if they wanted to. At a large con at least. Such people would be popufurs. They would most likely have a massive number of people who want to meet them and talk to them, and because of that, their time would most likely be split into tiny fractions for these many people.
Of course, a small congregation would work better for that #1 connection in that case, assuming there was a mutual desire to meet.
Like any fandom, from an anthropological perspective, there will always be cliques between certain types of people. Whether or not a person is able to locate themselves in any one of those cliques could be a question of position, effort, or even just serendipity. It may be a bit cynical to say, yet not unrealistic, a lot of social groups can be difficult to gain access to. Especially for those who are new or insignificant in regards to the social hub of the group.
My view may be warped tho since I just watch people in groups stay in groups.
I get what you're saying. A lot of the short encounters I had were nice but unsatisfying, mostly being of the brief "nice seeing you again" or "great to finally meet you" variety without much substance behind it, to the point where it felt like a sort of a mile marker rather than a milestone. I don't like being a box to be checked or treating someone else like that.
You might be on to something. I'm actually starting to go to more cons now, but hope to also do more one on one or small group trips because those can be a lot more fulfilling.
and what sucks is that... i think i know who person #1 & person #2 is....
and person #1 (meaningful with mutuals) sounds more my type.... 1.4 if i could say so ... because there are a lot of people i want to at least see and hug and spend SOME time with XD