As I sit here and write this it has now been a month and half since I worked and a month since me and my wife separated. I just can't seem to find happiness in life because I am still jobless and I am still single even though I have been on so many dating websites and apps. It seems all I am getting is offers for yiff even though my profiles say not looking for that. As for the job I am applying everyday to anything I can do and still nobody is calling me for jobs or interviews.

Right now I am feeling so broken inside as a person and I keep thinking to myself does anyone even care for me and am I even loved anymore. I feel like I could die tommorow and no one would ever miss me because it seems people who I thought were my friends in this fandom don't care.

I have posted comments on both twitter and facebook about how I have been feeling and no one seems to care even though one of post i brought up ending my life. So this is why I feel no one in this fandom actually cares about me because I am just some lonesome old coon and not some popufur.

I also feel this way about friends out of fandom as well. I feel like I am loosing all hope in this world that I will ever find happiness or love in it and no one would care if i just up and vanished from this life.