Im sitting here, petting my rabbit. watching the life slowly leave him. He's only three years old. With his healthy diet and exercise he should of made it to ten minimum. Im beginning to see this pattern in life. That it sucks. It kicks you while your down over and over. Every now and then you try something new. Maybe find a new source of happiness. Through all the shit you manage to get by on that glimmer of hope you find... But then it just gets ripped away. Theres nothing you can do. Fate is a monster. It cares not who you are or how badly you need that glimmer of light, it just takes it.

Smokey probably wont make it to the morning. Honestly if i didnt have archimedes depending on me i wouldnt want to either. I hate life. I want off this ride now. I'm not suppose to be happy.

Fuck you god if you exist you piece of shit.