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State of the Bear, 5 years in
8 years ago
We come once again upon Snowe Day, aka the anniversary of my official reintroduction to the furryverse as a blonde-furred bear.
In case anybody reading didn't already know, my first introduction to any of these communities came through my prior identity, Maxwell Ingraham, a human and fairly standard interpretation of my real-life self at the time. Through that identity, I formed a huge cast of characters and started introducing myself to some new things and new faces, but it eventually reached a point where I felt like my personal connection to the community and its people wasn't strong, and I couldn't interact very well in the ways that seemed to get the best response. Feeling that and a desire for a "fresh start" away from the storylines that my increasingly-bloated cast had accrued over time, a reset button of sorts was hit, and Snowe's world was born.
Since that time, a lot has been built and rebuilt. My cast is back to being bigger than it's ever been. I've met a lot of really cool and interesting people, befriended some of them, and to this point have lost touch with many in turn. I took a further interest in drawing and started to draft more characters and provide more of my own content, and then that skill and that spark both dropped out at some point and it's been a lengthy struggle to get any of it back, or even decide if I want to get any of it back. I still like Snowe and the relative simplicity of his design, but at the same time it feels rather telling of me and my motivation that we're five years later and I still don't have any formal ref-sheet for Snowe, let alone the literal dozen other characters in my mind that need them. In a lot of ways I feel like I've failed to make any meaningful impact on the larger community, nor really on any individuals save for a very small measure of friends. A lot of treading water but no swimming, if you will.
Five years later, I'm still not sure exactly what I could or should do to correct this. I'm not even sure if it's something that I want to or needs correcting. But for all the doubt and the sense that I haven't lived nearly up to my own expectations for myself, I still have faith in my mind and in my characters. I think their stories are worth glimpsing into. And if I want anybody else to really care, then I need to put more care into it myself first. Just, uh...bear with my while I figure out exactly what my strategy for that should be.
To anybody that's hung around for this long and still appreciates my sparse updates, I sincerely thank you for your continued interest and support. I hope I can come up with some ways to more frequently and more strongly justify that attention. For now, I've posted a few commissioned pieces--a few older ones and at least one brand-spanking-new--to help celebrate my anniversary. More to come!
-- Snowe
In case anybody reading didn't already know, my first introduction to any of these communities came through my prior identity, Maxwell Ingraham, a human and fairly standard interpretation of my real-life self at the time. Through that identity, I formed a huge cast of characters and started introducing myself to some new things and new faces, but it eventually reached a point where I felt like my personal connection to the community and its people wasn't strong, and I couldn't interact very well in the ways that seemed to get the best response. Feeling that and a desire for a "fresh start" away from the storylines that my increasingly-bloated cast had accrued over time, a reset button of sorts was hit, and Snowe's world was born.
Since that time, a lot has been built and rebuilt. My cast is back to being bigger than it's ever been. I've met a lot of really cool and interesting people, befriended some of them, and to this point have lost touch with many in turn. I took a further interest in drawing and started to draft more characters and provide more of my own content, and then that skill and that spark both dropped out at some point and it's been a lengthy struggle to get any of it back, or even decide if I want to get any of it back. I still like Snowe and the relative simplicity of his design, but at the same time it feels rather telling of me and my motivation that we're five years later and I still don't have any formal ref-sheet for Snowe, let alone the literal dozen other characters in my mind that need them. In a lot of ways I feel like I've failed to make any meaningful impact on the larger community, nor really on any individuals save for a very small measure of friends. A lot of treading water but no swimming, if you will.
Five years later, I'm still not sure exactly what I could or should do to correct this. I'm not even sure if it's something that I want to or needs correcting. But for all the doubt and the sense that I haven't lived nearly up to my own expectations for myself, I still have faith in my mind and in my characters. I think their stories are worth glimpsing into. And if I want anybody else to really care, then I need to put more care into it myself first. Just, uh...bear with my while I figure out exactly what my strategy for that should be.
To anybody that's hung around for this long and still appreciates my sparse updates, I sincerely thank you for your continued interest and support. I hope I can come up with some ways to more frequently and more strongly justify that attention. For now, I've posted a few commissioned pieces--a few older ones and at least one brand-spanking-new--to help celebrate my anniversary. More to come!
-- Snowe
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