Oh how i know the feeling all ot very very well

I'm not so sure Taura. I've never had this feeling before. perhaps it's from my years of isolation.
Perhaps I've seen rejection so much, I just know what I'm looking for now. I see it all over this community, people taking others away from each other.
it's fucking terrible, but a big eye opener. I never knew my own creation would teach me so much about life.

Regardless I do understand, and if actions of mine have been a contributing factor I appolagize for them as that never is or was my intentions, and if I can offer any kind of aid then I offer it fully

What's wrong Neox?

Just a Disconnect Azure. Trying to find my bearing is all...I'm not that well lubricated at the moment.

Why do you feel exiled? Someone giving you so grief?

It has not been a single individual. I think people just like picking on me for what I've made...
at the same time, i have people say nice things too. In the end, those are the comments that truly matter.

It's like having many friends who are having a huge party but you're not invited because everyone assumed someone else would do it and in the end no one has

I'll be destined to pleasure thousands of cocks for eternity.

Well that would certainly keep you occupied. I prefer kill virtual enemies since doing it for real would be kinda messy :D

I just need some time away from all the pushing and shoving

I'm sorry to hear that. What happened that you feel that way?

this feeling of being in the middle.

http://tinyurl.com/y8z7rw9a

ah. I know that feeling.

distance is just a number
we are of one mind and one being
we are one

being one means coming together to unite.
I actually feel like this community has been tearing me apart, ripping off my limbs for a piece of the Bal'Kar.

you are the Bal'kar! what you decide controls them all.
its funny, sometimes just faking confidence is enough to actually give you confidence.

im sorry you feel like that though, if you feel like a chat some time feel free.
=3

that is actually a good analogy.
How much confidence would you say the Bal'Kar had?
how is the human me ever gonna compare?

The Bal'Kar does not care what people think and does what it wants/needs. I guess that's the crux of confidence though, do what you need to and who cares what anyone thinks.

You are the Bal'Kar, weather in human form or otherwise. when you're feeling stressed/down, channel the power of Bal'Kar!
At the end of the day it is a construct of your psyche, so draw the strengths you need to from it in order to help you. That confident strong beast is in you, it is you, so learn to harness it.
=3

you actually brought me to tears just now...

In a good way i hope!
=3

The Bal'kar accept everything and every one! There is no flaw too great that becoming Bal'kar can't fix, and you're the father of them all. You're already Perfect, the rest of us are just trying to catch up.

Well, I want all of you to just relax and see what I do. none of this fighting over each other to get to me kinda theme that is going on.

I'm sorry you feel like that Neox, the Bal'kar are such an amazing creation, and you should be proud for what you've made. Stay strong, it'll all turn out well I'm sure.

I am proud of it! I may be a little bit too proud of it! I see the Bal'Kar as a huge potential to lift my flame into a swirling firestorm, and I don't want people messing up my world.
But I'm afraid of that! It's not easy to let it go. I wanna keep that flame under control but want to see it flow at the same time.

I get it tho, we all have setbacks and failures. Hopefully, in the process of making these mistakes, I will figure out things about myself I've yet to discover

Do you feel left out by the other members of the community you created or how do you mean this, buddy?

people yearn for my attention, I get so many people wanting to implement their own ways onto what I have made that I kinda don't know what to do.

I've created a group so people can enjoy the work of Bal'Kar, RP as a Bal'Kar, just enjoy what it is.
people have started saying I don't spend enough time with them, that the community won't last if I don't service the fans etc.

I Created the Bal'Kar for my own reasons, since then, I have shared it with the community and I just feel like everyone wants to rip a piece out of it for their own selfish desires.

Then there are those that take it literally and will badmouth me, hurt my feelings by saying they want to nuke it.
I take it all very personally as I have invested a lot of time and resources into making them.

I know I've made the Bal'Kar out to be somewhat of an antagonist with the way they work. But people tend to forget there's an actual person behind what is simply a story about what bal'kar are. so when people take it all on very seriously, people tend to not realize what psychological harm it does to me

You know you should set rules and boundaries on your creation of the Bal'Kars. After all you are the leader (and creation) of the Bal'kars so act like one Lolz XD