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Recovery and solution.
8 years ago
It's time to admit something.
Things are not going well for me, business, emotionally and in life.
I'll simply open up and put forward where I am in life and how I plan on moving forward.
The first major issue and cause for all my current stress, worry and issues.
Debt!
I have an incredible amount that has only happened in the last 2 years. Simply put, things that played out in my life couldn't have been more badly timed.
I've run and built up a business, Squeak Latex. It was operating smooth and successfully up until issues started to pop up early 2016.
I'll be upfront about the amount, hovering around the 60,000 mark. A position I wasn't in only a few years ago. I had no debt at all.
When we decided that I would move to the USA to marry my partner. We knew it would be a huge life change for me as well as a costly venture.
I did so at the end of 2015, packing up belongings and putting them on a ship, air fairs, immigration paper work fees and so on. All up costing easily in the 5 figures.
The other issue is having left my normal income and career back in Australia. I knew I wouldn't be able to seek employment for many months due to visa restrictions. In fact it was nearly a year before obtained the right to work in the USA.
The plan was during this time, my income from Squeak could keep me afloat and keep everything rolling.
However, in a journal explained here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8320146/ (not going to go into details again). Simply put, my long running suppliers up and left along with a substantial amount of my money. I had around 30 orders in line to be produced, already paid for by me. I tried everything to get the funds back but they where gone.
So now, I had 0 income and I was living off credit, from an account back in Australia.
This business was everything to me, a passion and something I had wanted to do for an incredibly long time.
It is now clear that I wouldn't be able to recover. I showed some promise with a new builder, however they are slow and unreliable. Making promises that I forward onto my clients which are then broken by my supplier.
I've managed to refund almost all of those effected, with only a handful left.
Obviously, all this caused those effected and their friends to be upset at me. This is expected and does effect me on quite the emotional level.
You see, I can officially say now that Squeak Latex is no longer operating now and into the foreseeable future.
I've gotten financial advice and as the company is Australian based and given my incredible debt there. I can declare bankruptcy, send my apology to those effected and just walk away....
It's just business after all, sometimes they fail.
But, who could do that?
Words can't describe the sleepless nights this has caused me. The amount of times I've had that knot in the pit of my stomach and sat awake crying at the sheer worry of how to recover. Letting down people is the worst feeling for me. Looking at every available option, selling personal belongings just to refund that extra person.
Possessions I never wanted to part with and know i'll never get them back.
The depression I had sunk into caused over 20lbs of weight gain, change in personality and even thoughts of suicide on multiple occasions.
It's also been hard on my marriage.
It's been hard to even come online. The tirade of abuse from the couple of people effected and their gang of support. Hurling abuse, twisting truth and spreading lies all to make themselves feel better about the situation all whilst making it worse for me.
I've spoken with one individual who has made it very clear they do it just because their angry and they enjoy it.
Granted, 99% of those effected have been understanding. I've been upfront and honest about my issue.
I've learned that I will never be able to win this people in the community over. They will forever hold a personal grudge or find a reason to dislike me.
Even if it was for something outside of Squeak Latex.
I understand I have a strong personality and drive to succeed in any task I set out to do or achieve. It would constantly bother me, I would try to understand why. Having tried to talk and discuss the issues they may have. I've spent to much energy and worry on people whom
are not worth doing so on.
I've apologized and I've tried. That's all I can do.
Some of these people have a right to be upset with me. They can go on with life continuing to be upset with me. I haven't ignored them, I've tried to solve the issues they have with me.
I've come to realize that some of these people are actually bad people, with vile personalities whom have their own social and personality flaws that prevents them from being anything more than what they are in life.
It's taken some time to understand it and I know it is something that will always hang around well into my future. I can't stop it, I can't fight it.
I can only learn from the person I once was. Even now, mistakes I made 5 years ago, 10 years ago are still bought up as if they are still a current issue and reflection of who I am.
I'm not a perfect person, I admit my flaws and I have done plenty of mistakes. To pretend I haven't made errors would be lying to myself.
I'm sorry for some actions in my past and believe me, I never planned to have my business fail. Whilst you didn't get your inflatable fetish latex suit or fursuit and you're upset about that.
This has nearly destroyed my entire life to the point of wanting to cut it short. So, perhaps some perspective should come into play here.
But, I haven't run. I haven't just said oh well, that's business. I am TRYING and slowly refunding those whom I have failed. I am doing the right thing in the worst possible situation.
I now realize that I have many friends and family who love and support me and I shouldn't let a few people try to destroy me. In fact, those who follow me in the community who enjoy what i do.
These bad eggs make up less than a percent! It's time to rise above and focus my energy where it deserves to be.
I'm not a bad guy, i'm fixing the problem. If i could wave a magic wand to make it all better I would.
I take no pride or joy in what has happened. Yet, those couple effected try to make it harder for me to recover. Which i'm doing to benefit them, to refund and correct the issue.
In recent months I've pushed myself up and out of the funk. Lost the weight and just keep working at chipping away at what I owe.
But, it hasn't been easy.
Whilst I did pick up a seasonal job, this has now come to an end and i'm not once again in a position where I have to wonder how to get ahead as well as simply stay afloat.
Giving up a career, loosing a business I spent nearly a decade building. Only to have it come crashing down at the worst possible time. I am trying to find something to fall back onto.
Oh, but you can't be doing that bad. I've seen you going to conventions and back to Australia!
Yes, you are correct. However, none of those conventions where out of pocket. 2 of them I had the pleasure of being guest of honor and another one was comped.
The Australian trip wasn't a holiday. I was offered 12 days of work that I quickly took and flights where covered. All of which is going to debts and money owed.
This is where all my income goes is to making things right to once again get my life back on track.
Also, there is something about putting on a face publicly and pretending everything is ok. I'm sure we all do it and I certainly didn't want to air who has been going on behind the curtain as it where.
Not wanting people to think badly of me or any more than the happy bouncing animal person behind the icon.
I just want to put this all behind me as quickly as possible. I work everyday on trying to get ahead. If I give up, i'll never be able to get back on with life.
So what do I do? Start a go fund me? Ask for help from the community?
No, this shouldn't require charity or a hand out. I'm not dying, I don't have cancer or some extreme medical emergency. As of right now, I have enough to eat, pay bills and pay off debt.
There is no magic solution to this other than persistent hard work.
An issue happened, i'm in a bad situation. There is no quick fix.
I'm sure you've noticed the lack of presence or contribution. I don't draw any more, I hardly am online, tweet or active in the communities.
Whilst I did try to build up some sort of support and exchange of content with my Patreon account and Duke. It simply isn't enough to really offer a solution nor give up my time else where to put into making videos, music, content etc.
I can't spare the time for that unless it financially out ways my other options. Expecting subscribers and followers to hand over a couple of dollars whilst nice in theory is unrealistic and certainly not the direction to take.
It will always remain a hobby and something I will find more time for once things are a little better. I tried to make it something more as I've seen other artists do, to try and help my situation. But, it wasn't meant to be.
I've had several friends pass way these past few years during all of this. I recently lost my aunt only a few weeks ago whom I was very close too.
This has all been very hard to take. But I push on.
Even now, tonight I had one of these 1% trying to publicly shame me in some way. I've offered discussion to these people and they refuse. There is no solution for them.
Only gratification from making a public spectacle.
What is frustrating is the lies that come from people. I've had discussions with folks where an issue had arisen. An end and solution to the issue is met with a happy or mutual result. They are then polite and nice to me to my face.
Yet, I now find them perpetuating lies or slander because they're still not over it, even years down the track.
Then i'm sorry. What more do you want from me? You can continue to hate me and I don't have the energy to defend myself against this petty behavior because you have "issues".
One of these people effected by all of this is trying to find everything he can to bring me down. Even topics and issues over a decade old, getting his buddies to spread and post them publicly.
It hurts, but many many people who have known this man tell me is unhinged, bi polar and nasty. That, this is the reason why you don't see him with anyone special in his life and alone at cons even after so many years. I did once call him a friend and I could have never seen this coming, i'm sad to see him act like this.
He is only hurting me and slowing me down. Which in the end perpetuates the problem of not being able to refund him. He is a lost cause that I know i'll never be able to stop him doing what he does to me. I can only try to ignore and move on from it.
I won't stoop to his level and call him by name so my tens of thousands of followers can attack him or hinder his life. I'm not that sort of person, I wouldn't wish what he's doing to me on anyone. Not even him.
He knows who he is, he has to live with himself. In fact, they all do.
My parents are visiting from Australia right now. I spent the frequent flyer points I had built up flying for the past decade and gifted them tickets to travel outside of Australia for their first time. Past retirement age and have given so much for me, including life itself.
This is something they are only going to do once. They saved for a year to enjoy themselves here for 10 weeks.
This is incredibly important to them and me as this is a trip of a life time. Something it is doubtful they'll be able to repeat given their age. With mortality an issue in my brain in recent years, I want to be able to make as many memories with my parents whilst I can.
Especially now living on the other side of the world from them.
It is a lot to ask, to be in your 30's and be told you have to start again, with a handicap.
But, I know I can only try.
To those who feel I have failed. I'm sorry. It isn't something I set out to do nor take any pleasure in failing you.
I feel a constant guilt and can only work on recovering.
Life is full of ups and downs. I can only try to get to the up once more.
Right now, with more gutless attacks, childish email bombs and the threat of spiraling into that suicidal depression once more.
I just can't spend the energy and be caught up in the poison. So i'm going away for a while.
My priorities are to recover from the loss, once again be in a better and happier position in my life.
I have no interest in the furry or latex community, its people or as a hobby. There is no benefit to spending anymore time on it and it currently brings no joy or happiness because of a few bad eggs.
Perhaps in time this will change. I certainly hope it does.
I am truly sorry for what has happened and my actions in dealing with the problem.
It's more than I could and can handle.
Those of you waiting for a refund or have any issues you'd like to discuss, you can contact me via email.
Thank you to everyone for your love and support over the many years.
Right now, I need to focus on reality. The community is no longer an escape for me. It is the cause of every problem in my life right now.
Things are not going well for me, business, emotionally and in life.
I'll simply open up and put forward where I am in life and how I plan on moving forward.
The first major issue and cause for all my current stress, worry and issues.
Debt!
I have an incredible amount that has only happened in the last 2 years. Simply put, things that played out in my life couldn't have been more badly timed.
I've run and built up a business, Squeak Latex. It was operating smooth and successfully up until issues started to pop up early 2016.
I'll be upfront about the amount, hovering around the 60,000 mark. A position I wasn't in only a few years ago. I had no debt at all.
When we decided that I would move to the USA to marry my partner. We knew it would be a huge life change for me as well as a costly venture.
I did so at the end of 2015, packing up belongings and putting them on a ship, air fairs, immigration paper work fees and so on. All up costing easily in the 5 figures.
The other issue is having left my normal income and career back in Australia. I knew I wouldn't be able to seek employment for many months due to visa restrictions. In fact it was nearly a year before obtained the right to work in the USA.
The plan was during this time, my income from Squeak could keep me afloat and keep everything rolling.
However, in a journal explained here http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8320146/ (not going to go into details again). Simply put, my long running suppliers up and left along with a substantial amount of my money. I had around 30 orders in line to be produced, already paid for by me. I tried everything to get the funds back but they where gone.
So now, I had 0 income and I was living off credit, from an account back in Australia.
This business was everything to me, a passion and something I had wanted to do for an incredibly long time.
It is now clear that I wouldn't be able to recover. I showed some promise with a new builder, however they are slow and unreliable. Making promises that I forward onto my clients which are then broken by my supplier.
I've managed to refund almost all of those effected, with only a handful left.
Obviously, all this caused those effected and their friends to be upset at me. This is expected and does effect me on quite the emotional level.
You see, I can officially say now that Squeak Latex is no longer operating now and into the foreseeable future.
I've gotten financial advice and as the company is Australian based and given my incredible debt there. I can declare bankruptcy, send my apology to those effected and just walk away....
It's just business after all, sometimes they fail.
But, who could do that?
Words can't describe the sleepless nights this has caused me. The amount of times I've had that knot in the pit of my stomach and sat awake crying at the sheer worry of how to recover. Letting down people is the worst feeling for me. Looking at every available option, selling personal belongings just to refund that extra person.
Possessions I never wanted to part with and know i'll never get them back.
The depression I had sunk into caused over 20lbs of weight gain, change in personality and even thoughts of suicide on multiple occasions.
It's also been hard on my marriage.
It's been hard to even come online. The tirade of abuse from the couple of people effected and their gang of support. Hurling abuse, twisting truth and spreading lies all to make themselves feel better about the situation all whilst making it worse for me.
I've spoken with one individual who has made it very clear they do it just because their angry and they enjoy it.
Granted, 99% of those effected have been understanding. I've been upfront and honest about my issue.
I've learned that I will never be able to win this people in the community over. They will forever hold a personal grudge or find a reason to dislike me.
Even if it was for something outside of Squeak Latex.
I understand I have a strong personality and drive to succeed in any task I set out to do or achieve. It would constantly bother me, I would try to understand why. Having tried to talk and discuss the issues they may have. I've spent to much energy and worry on people whom
are not worth doing so on.
I've apologized and I've tried. That's all I can do.
Some of these people have a right to be upset with me. They can go on with life continuing to be upset with me. I haven't ignored them, I've tried to solve the issues they have with me.
I've come to realize that some of these people are actually bad people, with vile personalities whom have their own social and personality flaws that prevents them from being anything more than what they are in life.
It's taken some time to understand it and I know it is something that will always hang around well into my future. I can't stop it, I can't fight it.
I can only learn from the person I once was. Even now, mistakes I made 5 years ago, 10 years ago are still bought up as if they are still a current issue and reflection of who I am.
I'm not a perfect person, I admit my flaws and I have done plenty of mistakes. To pretend I haven't made errors would be lying to myself.
I'm sorry for some actions in my past and believe me, I never planned to have my business fail. Whilst you didn't get your inflatable fetish latex suit or fursuit and you're upset about that.
This has nearly destroyed my entire life to the point of wanting to cut it short. So, perhaps some perspective should come into play here.
But, I haven't run. I haven't just said oh well, that's business. I am TRYING and slowly refunding those whom I have failed. I am doing the right thing in the worst possible situation.
I now realize that I have many friends and family who love and support me and I shouldn't let a few people try to destroy me. In fact, those who follow me in the community who enjoy what i do.
These bad eggs make up less than a percent! It's time to rise above and focus my energy where it deserves to be.
I'm not a bad guy, i'm fixing the problem. If i could wave a magic wand to make it all better I would.
I take no pride or joy in what has happened. Yet, those couple effected try to make it harder for me to recover. Which i'm doing to benefit them, to refund and correct the issue.
In recent months I've pushed myself up and out of the funk. Lost the weight and just keep working at chipping away at what I owe.
But, it hasn't been easy.
Whilst I did pick up a seasonal job, this has now come to an end and i'm not once again in a position where I have to wonder how to get ahead as well as simply stay afloat.
Giving up a career, loosing a business I spent nearly a decade building. Only to have it come crashing down at the worst possible time. I am trying to find something to fall back onto.
Oh, but you can't be doing that bad. I've seen you going to conventions and back to Australia!
Yes, you are correct. However, none of those conventions where out of pocket. 2 of them I had the pleasure of being guest of honor and another one was comped.
The Australian trip wasn't a holiday. I was offered 12 days of work that I quickly took and flights where covered. All of which is going to debts and money owed.
This is where all my income goes is to making things right to once again get my life back on track.
Also, there is something about putting on a face publicly and pretending everything is ok. I'm sure we all do it and I certainly didn't want to air who has been going on behind the curtain as it where.
Not wanting people to think badly of me or any more than the happy bouncing animal person behind the icon.
I just want to put this all behind me as quickly as possible. I work everyday on trying to get ahead. If I give up, i'll never be able to get back on with life.
So what do I do? Start a go fund me? Ask for help from the community?
No, this shouldn't require charity or a hand out. I'm not dying, I don't have cancer or some extreme medical emergency. As of right now, I have enough to eat, pay bills and pay off debt.
There is no magic solution to this other than persistent hard work.
An issue happened, i'm in a bad situation. There is no quick fix.
I'm sure you've noticed the lack of presence or contribution. I don't draw any more, I hardly am online, tweet or active in the communities.
Whilst I did try to build up some sort of support and exchange of content with my Patreon account and Duke. It simply isn't enough to really offer a solution nor give up my time else where to put into making videos, music, content etc.
I can't spare the time for that unless it financially out ways my other options. Expecting subscribers and followers to hand over a couple of dollars whilst nice in theory is unrealistic and certainly not the direction to take.
It will always remain a hobby and something I will find more time for once things are a little better. I tried to make it something more as I've seen other artists do, to try and help my situation. But, it wasn't meant to be.
I've had several friends pass way these past few years during all of this. I recently lost my aunt only a few weeks ago whom I was very close too.
This has all been very hard to take. But I push on.
Even now, tonight I had one of these 1% trying to publicly shame me in some way. I've offered discussion to these people and they refuse. There is no solution for them.
Only gratification from making a public spectacle.
What is frustrating is the lies that come from people. I've had discussions with folks where an issue had arisen. An end and solution to the issue is met with a happy or mutual result. They are then polite and nice to me to my face.
Yet, I now find them perpetuating lies or slander because they're still not over it, even years down the track.
Then i'm sorry. What more do you want from me? You can continue to hate me and I don't have the energy to defend myself against this petty behavior because you have "issues".
One of these people effected by all of this is trying to find everything he can to bring me down. Even topics and issues over a decade old, getting his buddies to spread and post them publicly.
It hurts, but many many people who have known this man tell me is unhinged, bi polar and nasty. That, this is the reason why you don't see him with anyone special in his life and alone at cons even after so many years. I did once call him a friend and I could have never seen this coming, i'm sad to see him act like this.
He is only hurting me and slowing me down. Which in the end perpetuates the problem of not being able to refund him. He is a lost cause that I know i'll never be able to stop him doing what he does to me. I can only try to ignore and move on from it.
I won't stoop to his level and call him by name so my tens of thousands of followers can attack him or hinder his life. I'm not that sort of person, I wouldn't wish what he's doing to me on anyone. Not even him.
He knows who he is, he has to live with himself. In fact, they all do.
My parents are visiting from Australia right now. I spent the frequent flyer points I had built up flying for the past decade and gifted them tickets to travel outside of Australia for their first time. Past retirement age and have given so much for me, including life itself.
This is something they are only going to do once. They saved for a year to enjoy themselves here for 10 weeks.
This is incredibly important to them and me as this is a trip of a life time. Something it is doubtful they'll be able to repeat given their age. With mortality an issue in my brain in recent years, I want to be able to make as many memories with my parents whilst I can.
Especially now living on the other side of the world from them.
It is a lot to ask, to be in your 30's and be told you have to start again, with a handicap.
But, I know I can only try.
To those who feel I have failed. I'm sorry. It isn't something I set out to do nor take any pleasure in failing you.
I feel a constant guilt and can only work on recovering.
Life is full of ups and downs. I can only try to get to the up once more.
Right now, with more gutless attacks, childish email bombs and the threat of spiraling into that suicidal depression once more.
I just can't spend the energy and be caught up in the poison. So i'm going away for a while.
My priorities are to recover from the loss, once again be in a better and happier position in my life.
I have no interest in the furry or latex community, its people or as a hobby. There is no benefit to spending anymore time on it and it currently brings no joy or happiness because of a few bad eggs.
Perhaps in time this will change. I certainly hope it does.
I am truly sorry for what has happened and my actions in dealing with the problem.
It's more than I could and can handle.
Those of you waiting for a refund or have any issues you'd like to discuss, you can contact me via email.
Thank you to everyone for your love and support over the many years.
Right now, I need to focus on reality. The community is no longer an escape for me. It is the cause of every problem in my life right now.
Good luck.
Life sometimes puts up speed bumps and road blocks to deter us from happiness, and it's up to us to work our way around them. And the people who want to get in your way? Fuck them. They don't matter. All that matters right now is you continuing to be your awesome self, the best son to your parents, and the best husband to Mozee.
For the very few who try to attack and defame you just to satisfy their own ego, there are many many more in your corner who believe in you and your success. I'm rooting for you, Duke. 🐾
Fuck those who troll you, who gives a flying moose cunt what they think, your a good person and a hell of a furry, you make us feel proud in the community and we will always stand by you no matter what you choose, whether to leave the community forever, take a leave of absence or to return when the time is right for you, finacially or mentally, we will be here for you with open arms and wagging tails and the occasional glomp or marf thrown in for good measure.
You have such amazing inner strength for instance
. You moved halfway around the world to be with your partner to whom I believe your now married to
- that in itself is a dawnting task
. You got married and were successful in getting a US Citizenship
- again, an incredible accomplishment which takes strength both emotional and mental
. You have lost loved ones
- something that always sucks a giant hairy meatball
I could go on but, I feel I made my point, I can understand why you fell of the rails and sunk into the cracks, we can all relate brother, and I know that you think that ending it all will solve things but, it would only cause more pain not only for you but, for you folks and your ott as well.
Stay strong and believe in yourself and hope it works out for the best, and never call yourself a charity, there is no shame for asking for help, we're not only just a community, we are united as furry brothers and sisters and all those in between we help our own and there is no shame for asking for help or in accepting the help.
I hope things work out for you G SHEP, you are my biggest inspriation when it comes to the community and your are the reason why I got into it in the first place, you are my furry hero and I absolutley adore you
Keep your friends and family close, they'll be the best thing for you during this.
Ｈｏｐｅ ｔｈｉｎｇｓ ｇｅｔ ｂｅｔｔｅｒ ｆｏｒ ｙｏｕI wish all of the good luck for you. *Hugs*
Duke.
Please Read.
I Owe you a Apology.
I Am sorry for everything please take care of yourself and always look up not down the world is full of hate i know it hurts but we have real friends family that rebuild us make us stronger and better.
Don't let it get to you. Every hurricane becomes a rainbow.
You can get through this! There's something out there for you. Stay strong Duke
Also, sorry for your loss
Well I'd say I'd love to really talk to you about all of this but I'm just some random furry, like you said you're probably trying to keep away from all of this. This is really unfortunate to hear. I'm sorry you're going through this.
It seems like the furry community these days is full of people that just love to call each other out over whatever they possibly can in order to get as much attention as they can. That's all I see when I go on twitter, facebook, etc, is just "Look at what this person did, aren't they terrible."
That's why I like coming back and looking at the content you produce, it gives me an escape from that. Your stuff was some of the first stuff I discovered when I joined the furry fandom, and for that it gives me a really nostalgic feel when I visit your page. I miss when the furry fandom was just about being a furry. Having fun in costumes. It's spiraled down into madness at this point...
I didn't know you were at AC, I recently attended my first one and I wanted to give you a big ol hug. I look up to you a lot.
You gotta do what you gotta do though. I'll see what I can do to help you. I don't have a lot of hours at work right now but tomorrow when I get paid I'll take a look at your pateron and see what I can give to help with your issues. I can't imagine how devastating your situation is and I can share a little of what I've got, if it helps.
I would like to talk to you again sometime.
You, and what you have done mean so much to me.
If I can do anything at all, even if it is just listening, get a hold of me anytime.
I Love You, my friend!!
*HUGS*
CEF
I have always wanted you to be happy and you seemed to be happy as Duke and as Oz.
There are times that I might have taken you for granted or dumped problems on you and .. it isn't right.
But I am sorry that people are being petty and childish. I don't understand that. If you don't like someone why would you go and harass them all the time? Why would you waste all of your free time to hassle someone.. why? Because of something that you heard? That just.. it irritates me because I probably have done that in the past.. now I just have no time for it.
But I will say this. I met you a few times and every, single time that I met you .. it made me smile. I also wanted to ask about the debt that you're in.. can you claim bankruptcy? It will screw over your credit.. yes.. however, it might get you out of the hole you are in right now. Heck I am doing it and my debt is WAY less than yours..
Right now you need to focus on you. Not the people who loved you as Duke or Oz. And if that means leaving the fandom for good then I wish you will.
I have never harbored any hate towards you. Heck I think you're in the bay still right? I am in Sacramento and .. god knows WHY anyone would want to come up here.. if you and your mate ever wanted to visit.. let me know. I would be more than happy to host you two or just yourself for a few hours or if you wanted to spend the night (I have a comfy couch.. when my dog isn't claiming it ;)
But not as furs. As friends. I do like you and never will stop doing that. People can say whatever they want about you (as they do about me and hell I have done some shit in the past that I am not proud of.. we ALL HAVE) but that will NEVER change my feelings towards you Duke. Not. Ever.
And if the people who attacked duke are reading this? Congrats. You won. If I actually knew who was doing this to Duke I would probably cut them out of my life. Because pushing someone to this.. it is TOO FAR. We are all in a fandom where we like animal characters people! It is NOT that serious!
Words hurt. And y'all need to take a step back and see what you have done.
Duke, again.. I am here for you. If you ever need to talk note me and i'll give you my #
Sighs.. this reminds me of a good line from the Simpsons:
Lisa, I apologize to you, I was wrong, I take it all back. Always be yourself. If you want to be sad, honey, be sad. We'll ride it out with you. And when you get finished feeling sad, we'll still be there. From now on, let me do the smiling for both of us.
And we all will ride it out with you.
Take care Duke.
Love, Johnny
*joins hug pile*
I care.
And had I known you were going through this, I would have reached out sooner. Life has kept me busy and I haven’t been as chatty with as many furs as I used to be. I still fondly remember spending that time with you and your mate at AC2017. You both are wonderful people and definitely were a highlight of my con.
I do look forward to seeing you again, Duke, and I do hope to see your smiling face around real soon.
- Garth
Hope things look better soon, I believe in you. <3
I am just reading this now.
I am sorry that you went through a lot of difficult times in your past and sorry to hear about your business falling apart too.
But I want to tell you that the future will get better for you. I believe in that. I spread good thoughts and prayers for you.
Whatever trouble tries to get in your way and slow you down from you achieving what you really want to do, you should not
allow it. These times you've faced shall pass but will make you strong today. When you say you failed, I don't believe you failed
anyone not even yourself. Failing means room for improvement or next opportunity. What happened, happened. It's not your fault
Duke. You can definitely get back up on your feet. I love you dude, I really think you are an amazing guy. I seriously mean that.
I want to see you succeed, you have it in the palm of your hands. You can do it! Keep going forward dude. I really hope this helped.
Take care of what's important first, worry about today don't look behind or ahead. *hugs* You will always be a friend to me even if
we don't always see each other. Anyways, best wishes to you and you take care. God bless you my friend. My condolences to your
aunt.