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Hello! No, I'm not dead.
8 years ago
But I am sick... Thank you con crud! :P
I wanted to post a journal to let people know how I am doing *eyes the journal list to the right* Hmmmm...8 months since the last journal...
This year has really been about trying to find balance in my life. I was let go from my previous job last year around... July? And I realized I was in a bad way. A huge part of my stress revolved around that job. It had slowly become a vile, toxic environment and I didn't realize how badly it was affecting me. I was bleeding pretty badly due to Crohn's Disease and the stress I had endured. I would come home and basically just pass out from exhaustion, sometimes not even eating dinner. And when I did eat at work during the day, it was usually not something that was the best for my food-based disease... That's going to happen when you work downtown -- time restrictions and money restriction :/
After I was let go, Aerak and I decided to finally start our fursuit business. This opened a lot of doors for us both, me especially. We get to set our own hours, take time to cook proper meals, and take time when I am not well to GET well. It's given us the opportunity to take a look at how and why we do things, both with food habits and with sleep and normal schedule things. - Basically, Aerak is VERY schedule oriented. He likes having things planned to the tee, whereas I love playing things by ear. I think and act well on my feet if something goes wrong. We found that we actually compliment each other really well. I get to push the envelope on experimentation, and he keeps me in check to make sure we make our deadlines :P
Admittedly, it's been a very rough year. There have been times where we weren't sure bills were going to get paid. But those times have pushed us to work harder. There have been days where we've worked 14+ hours; gone from literally getting to bed to waking up and starting up again to finish a suit in time. We've managed to stay in the black the entire year, which has been pretty awesome considering we are a first year business. And the amazing part of all of this is that no matter how stressed out I got, I never bled from my crohn's. I NEVER got as stressed out, not even close, as I did working at my previous job.
Looking back, I think one of the hardest things for me was not being able to be creative. My last job sucked all the creativity away from me, even having some of the smaller parts I could contribute being given to the project leads. It was kind of surprising when I had some of the people be amazed at some animation work I had done, only to forget about it a couple months later...and THEN be confused when told I do animation work. I had one person get really confused when she was told I had done the animation played on the front monitor for a co-worker who had passed away. It kind of hurt a lot too...for a company to be so supposedly bound by creativity to just...forget about you.
Now, I am my own boss. I answer to my partner, both business and life. And I love it. No matter how tough things have gotten, I have loved every minute of it. I love seeing our creations bouncing around. I see the struggles and the amazing joy people get from our work. I never got to see any of the impact really from my previous work, but making suits is like a 180 degree turn. Don't get me wrong, there's still a lot more that I have to figure out. I would love to finally find the time to pick up my art and even start some serious animation projects. I haven't done too much due to how hard I have been working with costuming and trying to improve.
One of my goals for 2018 is to finally pick up some more of the art aspects. I'm going to be looking into better pain management...and hopefully a better kitchen I can cook in :3
Anyway, if you'd like to chill with me in chat; I have a discord server!
https://discord.gg/KBQfsb2
It's a bit quiet right now, but I really want to change that. Feel free to stop by and say hi! <3
I wanted to post a journal to let people know how I am doing *eyes the journal list to the right* Hmmmm...8 months since the last journal...
This year has really been about trying to find balance in my life. I was let go from my previous job last year around... July? And I realized I was in a bad way. A huge part of my stress revolved around that job. It had slowly become a vile, toxic environment and I didn't realize how badly it was affecting me. I was bleeding pretty badly due to Crohn's Disease and the stress I had endured. I would come home and basically just pass out from exhaustion, sometimes not even eating dinner. And when I did eat at work during the day, it was usually not something that was the best for my food-based disease... That's going to happen when you work downtown -- time restrictions and money restriction :/
After I was let go, Aerak and I decided to finally start our fursuit business. This opened a lot of doors for us both, me especially. We get to set our own hours, take time to cook proper meals, and take time when I am not well to GET well. It's given us the opportunity to take a look at how and why we do things, both with food habits and with sleep and normal schedule things. - Basically, Aerak is VERY schedule oriented. He likes having things planned to the tee, whereas I love playing things by ear. I think and act well on my feet if something goes wrong. We found that we actually compliment each other really well. I get to push the envelope on experimentation, and he keeps me in check to make sure we make our deadlines :P
Admittedly, it's been a very rough year. There have been times where we weren't sure bills were going to get paid. But those times have pushed us to work harder. There have been days where we've worked 14+ hours; gone from literally getting to bed to waking up and starting up again to finish a suit in time. We've managed to stay in the black the entire year, which has been pretty awesome considering we are a first year business. And the amazing part of all of this is that no matter how stressed out I got, I never bled from my crohn's. I NEVER got as stressed out, not even close, as I did working at my previous job.
Looking back, I think one of the hardest things for me was not being able to be creative. My last job sucked all the creativity away from me, even having some of the smaller parts I could contribute being given to the project leads. It was kind of surprising when I had some of the people be amazed at some animation work I had done, only to forget about it a couple months later...and THEN be confused when told I do animation work. I had one person get really confused when she was told I had done the animation played on the front monitor for a co-worker who had passed away. It kind of hurt a lot too...for a company to be so supposedly bound by creativity to just...forget about you.
Now, I am my own boss. I answer to my partner, both business and life. And I love it. No matter how tough things have gotten, I have loved every minute of it. I love seeing our creations bouncing around. I see the struggles and the amazing joy people get from our work. I never got to see any of the impact really from my previous work, but making suits is like a 180 degree turn. Don't get me wrong, there's still a lot more that I have to figure out. I would love to finally find the time to pick up my art and even start some serious animation projects. I haven't done too much due to how hard I have been working with costuming and trying to improve.
One of my goals for 2018 is to finally pick up some more of the art aspects. I'm going to be looking into better pain management...and hopefully a better kitchen I can cook in :3
Anyway, if you'd like to chill with me in chat; I have a discord server!
https://discord.gg/KBQfsb2
It's a bit quiet right now, but I really want to change that. Feel free to stop by and say hi! <3
I'm on telegram, discord google hangouts these days far as messengers go. Hope to hear from you soon and thanks for letting us know whats been up!
Also, haha...thanks! I’m not often complimented on grammar and sentence structure. <3