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I do not enjoy making art anymore
7 years ago
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Pushing myself to take commissions hasn't been the best for me. I've heard so many times that if you want to make art a job then you need to treat it professionally and work hard, and that it doesn't matter if you enjoy it or not, because its work and you owe your customer what they paid for. I've wanted to do art as a job so badly because I personally struggle with working a normal job. So much so that my depression had led to me becoming evicted and homeless, because I couldn't get up off the couch and go to work.
People tell you that if you have a job that you love that you'll never have to work a day in your life. They're wrong. Or at least, in my experience they're wrong. Instead of never having to work, you'll just end up hating the thing you used to love. When you turn your hobby into a business it takes everything from you.
Some people can make this work. They have certain circumstances that allow them to take the time to get good at art and running their own business, or perhaps have a predisposition at being good at those things. I do not have a natural knack for art, I work very hard but I do not work everyday because I cannot, physically or mentally, and that makes a huge difference in the skill of an artist. I think its become obvious to everyone else, and now me, that I cannot make this work.
I gave it a good run. Or, at least a run. I dealed at BLFC last year and I had a great experience. People seemed to really enjoy my work. But I also took on too much work. It was good because I was able to help myself out of a slump, and afford more accommodations to my situation at the time. But doing that much art in that short amount of time, and consequently my queue after the con, drained the absolute fuck out of me.
I do not enjoy making art anymore. In fact, I hate my art. So much. And it kills me. Taking something I enjoyed so much since my earliest childhood, my outlet during my horribly depressive teenage years, and into my stressful and dissociative young adult years, and now its become the thing I've had the most struggle with: work.
So this is me signing off of here. This account. If I make furry art anymore it will probably be for friends and more importantly myself. I might change my mind later, I still have ideas for art and maybe stickers, t-shirts, and crafty things. But struggling like this hasn't been good for my health, nor has it been even remotely successful.
For my friends that have been here for me since the beginning, or even the very kind people along the way: Thank you. Thank you for supporting me and my art. Many people have shown me a kindness on this website that I cannot repay. I have made so many great friends through this community.
I am not leaving this community or fandom. I still plan on attending conventions, and am working 30 hours a week, so I might even be able to afford commissioning some art pieces before too long.
If you would like to keep in contact with me through furaffinity I will be at
goodnoodle Twitter is still CanisSolus, Telegram is CanisSolus
Pushing myself to take commissions hasn't been the best for me. I've heard so many times that if you want to make art a job then you need to treat it professionally and work hard, and that it doesn't matter if you enjoy it or not, because its work and you owe your customer what they paid for. I've wanted to do art as a job so badly because I personally struggle with working a normal job. So much so that my depression had led to me becoming evicted and homeless, because I couldn't get up off the couch and go to work.
People tell you that if you have a job that you love that you'll never have to work a day in your life. They're wrong. Or at least, in my experience they're wrong. Instead of never having to work, you'll just end up hating the thing you used to love. When you turn your hobby into a business it takes everything from you.
Some people can make this work. They have certain circumstances that allow them to take the time to get good at art and running their own business, or perhaps have a predisposition at being good at those things. I do not have a natural knack for art, I work very hard but I do not work everyday because I cannot, physically or mentally, and that makes a huge difference in the skill of an artist. I think its become obvious to everyone else, and now me, that I cannot make this work.
I gave it a good run. Or, at least a run. I dealed at BLFC last year and I had a great experience. People seemed to really enjoy my work. But I also took on too much work. It was good because I was able to help myself out of a slump, and afford more accommodations to my situation at the time. But doing that much art in that short amount of time, and consequently my queue after the con, drained the absolute fuck out of me.
I do not enjoy making art anymore. In fact, I hate my art. So much. And it kills me. Taking something I enjoyed so much since my earliest childhood, my outlet during my horribly depressive teenage years, and into my stressful and dissociative young adult years, and now its become the thing I've had the most struggle with: work.
So this is me signing off of here. This account. If I make furry art anymore it will probably be for friends and more importantly myself. I might change my mind later, I still have ideas for art and maybe stickers, t-shirts, and crafty things. But struggling like this hasn't been good for my health, nor has it been even remotely successful.
For my friends that have been here for me since the beginning, or even the very kind people along the way: Thank you. Thank you for supporting me and my art. Many people have shown me a kindness on this website that I cannot repay. I have made so many great friends through this community.
I am not leaving this community or fandom. I still plan on attending conventions, and am working 30 hours a week, so I might even be able to afford commissioning some art pieces before too long.
If you would like to keep in contact with me through furaffinity I will be at
goodnoodle Twitter is still CanisSolus, Telegram is CanisSolus
all of the artists I have ever watched, most of them ended up hating art in about 2 years. It still becomes
"Work" and work is not enjoyable. I started to see this myself whenever I take on more than one
commission at a time. WHich is why I got a part time job.
I decided to work for myself in art creating content and projects I enjoy making, and if people want to
support that, then that's just a plus for me. Seriously, draw for yourself. Draw for you, and only draw
for others if you really want to. Super keep work out of drawing at this point if you do want to doodle from time to time.
I wish you very much positive energies.
But seriously you're a great person and arttist. I hope you keep with it and can find the fun in this again. Never give up!