This morning something woke me up about how much fun I used to have when I was first introduced to furry. And now that I've been around long enough to try my hand at art commissions, and around furries that loved drama and popularity status, I got a bit jaded about furry. I became obsessed with the numbers game, wanting more followers so I could make more money off art. I wanted people to know who I was and be someone in the community that was looked up to or just even looked at. I was never happy when I started to obsess over making money over furry art. I started hating the stuff I made or my skill level I have. Ive had an overall bad experience at the last con I went to because I was so upset no one wanted to hang out with me because I don't have a fursuit.
This is all stuff that I used to not care about, especially way back when I joined. I was just happy to be around like-minded people.
It's not something I wasn't aware of happening, I just didn't know how to stop once I started being obsessed with my status in the community, because it just mattered to me somehow.
Today I think I finally accept that I'm never really gonna be a "somebody" in the furry community, a good artist or a fursuiter or anything, cuz I just don't have the tools or talent.
But at this point I'm okay with that. I just want to have fun like I used to. And create things because I want to make them, not because I think it'll sell.
I still might work on stuff on the side to sell. But from now on I want to focus on just having fun being a furry and making new and interesting things.

Here's to having fun and being creative and sharing with people that appreciate animals with human qualities. 🍻
Thanks for being here with me.