I've not felt this conflicted in such a while. I've been invited to a wedding in Pennsylvania by a friend and it was one of the warmest thing he has ever done.
I just want to cry and I feel like yelling. I'm in a rocky relationship with my mother, I'm being hated for expressing my feelings for it as well as being honest and looking for unconditional love, and I'm going to be forced in paying her bills in the house after my birthday.