your loveable just your looking for the wrong types of people i have a few friends try messaging people like umiriko and try to change the icon if i know anything people look at the icon and think hmmm they use a pink eastern dragon its got vore and they have many shades of pink
others when doing this to you may just think your some insane sonic fan and if your after a pikachu oc there is a list of request artists on the furaffinity fourm they can hook you up for free and honestly not everyone here is friendly i know a few who have told me to kill myself even some who have spammed it and well i got upset but i kept it cool and told myself that if they want to act like little kids then let the mods deal with them if i were you id go ahead and try to find people who are playfull fun kinda silly and like to chat and one more thing thoes that are verbally abusing you you should tell a mod about it dont delete the note and give them access to the note they'll take care of it from there its not nice or acceptable to harrass someone if you did nothing wrong

It doesn't matter... I'm leaving...

what if i can get them to stop

Go ahead and try. I'm telling you its a waste of time.

its not a waist of time
... If theyre caught by mods

It doesn't matter...

ehh they could be banned you know gone from fa possibly

No they're not...

ok im tired of this
let you put it the way i see it
your putting yourself down your letting them bother you
your telling yourself that nothing will ever change your thinking it will always be the same but just look outside was that cloud there before look that leaf wasn't on the ground yesterday what you need is to get up go out side plug in your headphones listen to some happy peppy music and just walk for a few hours take a lap around the park if there is one take a walk around town travel through roads youve never been and just forget about the people that are mean and just think wonder about the town its history or trek up a trail watch the sunset life is full of good things but they only come if your looking for them and heres a metaphor that fits perfectly here
when it rains and it floods and things may seem terrible outside dont let it get you down because at the end of it there will be a rainbow and its view is only yours it is unique and special as you and nomatter how you think or what happens just know that someone has been in your place before and took advice from others and made friends and now they have many friends and many more to make and you are one of them