Okay so I guess I might as well make an update.

The things I've been struggling with are...that my mom has been in the hospital since last week. I've been touch and go mentally and its been literally driving me over the edge. I dont know what to do, I dont know what is going on and its put me in a very bad place.

My forms of coping have been rping, watching youtube and drawing. I have some friends that I really need to thank for being there for me. Because of them I'm able to keep grasp of my sanity. They know who they are. They are the only ones I've actually gone to and spoken to about what has been happening.

And I'm trying to find myself again. I'm diving back into a fandom in hopes it gets me out of ...whatever it is I'm in right now. I can only hope that it works.