Yesterday, I was at a Mardi Gras parade (I know you guys aren't familiar with this events) with my dad. We were waiting on the floats to come up after 3 and I pulled my 3DS off my backpack and play Pokemon Ultra Moon just to kill sometimes. My dad standing next to me saw what I was playing on the 3DS and told me I'm too big (you mean old) to be playing. I said to him that I am not old for that. He told me it's old. I said that there are many people around my age still plays. That fact he said that to me when he saw when I was played made me feel depressed and suicidal.

And plus, I have a little throwback that I would like to share with you.

On December 13, 2013. It's all started when my picked me up from my house to help him get the lawnmover out of the repair shop. My dad asked me if I had something to eat for breakfast and I told him I only had popcorn, my dad scolded me for not eating any breakfast which pissed me off on the inside. It wasn't helping any fact that I overslept to 12pm CT. I told him I understand well, I forgot what I said to me. After ending this topic, I dropped my headphone down just to sit them down and my dad overreacted, accusing me of actually dropping them down out of anger when I was actually releasing my headphone off my hand. He almost sent me back to my house for my behavior towards him and threatened to beat me if I do this again. He started criticized me for developing my anger at him over petty things like throwing stuff at then wall which I didn't do and also did not want to get my mom or my dad to take me to get something to eat and sometimes not wanting to spend my money. And then, he also called me out of still playing Nintendo games and JRPGs since claimed there were just "children's games" and he wanted to find me something challenge to play. He told me that I never tried playing the Xbox, I told him I wasn't interested in these exclusive and he told me that I was missing out all the fun if I never played sport games and Xbox. He told me that sport games would last me long. I tried to tell him that Nintendo weren't just for kids but me ingored me, telling to me stay off of them and man up. He also told me to stay off off all animated stuff and get into reading books and watch movies. That's the end of the talk I had with my talk. I haven't stopped crying and feeling depressed for almost a whole week where to the point and I was ready to find a gun to shot myself, a rope to hang myself up, and some plenty of sleeping fills to shallow, like I couldn't handle all this stress since I have been dealing with it ever since I was a teenage when I was very hooked to anime and manga.

That is a end of the story, if my dad does the same thing to me one more time, I will prepare myself to bring in a the knife to kill myself, a rope to hang myself up, and some sleeping pills to shallow. No exceptions.