Things have truly been going downhill in my life and these last few incidents are proving it. I'm on the verge of having one of my(what seems to be a yearly thing for some reason) breakdowns, which may or may not include violent outbursts. Figures too. Some asshole on telegram once told me "people like you are just misunderstood" and I couldn't agree more. My "friends" seem to be keeping their distance, or blowing me off all together, now things with my mate are rocky as fuck, to the point where even saying "hello" would set things off :'( because of everyone's lack of understanding their friends/family people like me are more victums than bad people. "For every action their is an equal reaction" is a Newton law. Friends ignore friends, especially long term, how does everyone think those friends will handle it? People like me do not handle that added stress well at all and it causes us to do stupid shit. But *shrugs* no one things about others much any more. Like the MLG players in video games life is about "me me me me" and it makes the world so cold.

There was a lot to say and I appreciate everyone who read this. Like my other journals take this with a grain of salt and don't over think anything, just know this is my only way to vent without slamming my head into a brick wall :p