Welp it will be my birthday this thursday, i'll be 23 years old yay~ NOT!

I am sorry but the mere thought of my birthday coming up is making me quite depressed, Why? Well because where i live on a island for two years nearly I have no real life friends out here so practically I am alone and isolated, I only have my nana and honestly she ruined my 22nd birthday last year and caused a major fight so I been trying to pretend that my birthday doesn't exist let alone celebrate it but I know I can't do that forever and I should try to be a bit more positive about my birthday which is difficult but I would like to spend it with all of you guys somehow, maybe a stream or something? who knows but yeah.