i dont really have a place to vent about this except here so here goes

i miss my ex. i miss her so bad and i still have so much love for her aeven though we broke up almost three months ago and it's just. so painful i want to be iwth her and we still talk and stuff sometimes and i like to hear that she's doing okay but i know she's hiding all this pain and it just hurts me. i wish she would have let me love her

i don't know what to do because i know it's fucked up to keep pursuing her even though she wants it to bbe over but i dont think i can be whole
and i know half of it is my own problem with attachment but she's just amazing and so good for me and it's the worst thing ever to feel like this

i think about her all the time and i just want to love her again

'i wish you all the love in the world but most of all i wish it from myself'